ShatteredWings
November 8th, 2008, 11:26 AM
I don't really think so.
True, i'm back healthy. Prolly gained around 50 pounds[then lost ten...] since september '07.
But, i mean... it still seems forced, just living. hiding.
In denial.
Knowing that it COULD start again, if i don't keep in control.
True, noone would ever say i'm underweight. But, that's not really what an ed is.... like.. i still get sick sometimes. often times...
[/end rant for now]
This is really irking me. just the fact that it's NOT over. no matter what i try to say or do. Nobody knows.. or at least nobody cares.
"it's a control issue", yes and no... currently yes.
im still scared that i might loose more weight.. i donwanna
True, i'm back healthy. Prolly gained around 50 pounds[then lost ten...] since september '07.
But, i mean... it still seems forced, just living. hiding.
In denial.
Knowing that it COULD start again, if i don't keep in control.
True, noone would ever say i'm underweight. But, that's not really what an ed is.... like.. i still get sick sometimes. often times...
[/end rant for now]
This is really irking me. just the fact that it's NOT over. no matter what i try to say or do. Nobody knows.. or at least nobody cares.
"it's a control issue", yes and no... currently yes.
im still scared that i might loose more weight.. i donwanna