on the edge

[DarkWingedAngel]

im done finished
im like so close to just putting a gun to my head
i have already tried to kill myself 3 times in the past 2 months not including today
my life just gets worse and worse
and each time a try at anything in life i fail
im determined to do it



so this is just me saying if i just disappear out of no wear and im gone for along time then don't expect me back

[Mzor203]

Desi, you've really got to sit down and think about this more. Everyone goes through rough times, I've had my fair share of them. But you have to be strong. Think about the impact this would have on your friends and family. It would shatter them. You need to keep going for their sake, and yours. If you try, you will go on to do great things, and if you kill yourself, where will you be?

Everyone has bad days, bad weeks, sometimes even terrible months. But you have to make the best of it that you can, and do your best to make it better. You have to be proactive, and work towards fixing the things that are wrong.

Please, don't kill yourself.

[DarkWingedAngel]

know one cares about me
i just fail at everything
this has been going on for 5 years now ever since i was 10
i have tried to kill my self for as long as i can remember
my life is just meant to be like this
so why not just end it

[Mzor203]

You're not trying hard enough to make life into something better. There are definitely plenty of things in life that you must be good at, and there are places you can be able to make your mark.

You have to start by figuring what it is you want to do in life. Set yourself some goals, and start working towards them. If you have things to do that you can work towards and eventually accomplish, it will give you something to do as well as start making you feel better about yourself.

And you must have some friends. If not, go to more social activities where you will be able to make friends. Try to connect with others more. It will not only raise yourself esteem, but also give you more people to support you.

The fact that you're posting this here means you want people to know, and deep down you want help. You need to find out how you can improve your situation, because everyone is worth something.

[DarkWingedAngel]

i have some friends but they have no idea that im like this
no one does except you guys
and even if i did tell my friends they won't care
i don't care ether
so what one person will be sad and that one person will be my mom
but she will also be the only one and it will soon fade

[electric7rocker]

thats seriously not true
last year when i got taken to the hospital
i thought no one cared about me
but when i got back to school
ppl were hellaaa worried
they didnt even know what had happened i just hadnt answered their calls or anything

people love you
we love you
suicide = no no

[Mzor203]

I'm sorry it's like that Desi. But there is only one person who can change that, and that is you. I think you should take my previous advice and start getting out in the world more.

You are the one who can drive the change, not us.

[DarkWingedAngel]

well i just fail at everything
so i just think i might fail that this to
but w/e

[Callwaiting]

You can't just give up! I know that sounds cliched but it's true.
Think about your life. Your entire life won't be a failure, even if now it seems like it. Sometime, somewhere you'll be happy, you'll enjoy life and look back on this as something that almost ruined your life.

Try to be strong, soldier on through the crap you have to deal with now, because your mum's there for you now, and we're always going to be here to listen and help as best we can, we're here for each other.

I know exactly how you feel though, and if you want to talk about anything over msn I'll be there to listen.

[DarkWingedAngel]

i appreciate the help everyone
but it just is not helping me
everything is just getting worse
im going to see how long i last until i totally break and go die
so i will be on for as long as i can

[electric7rocker]

you said youve tried to kill yourself before?
but youre still alive
so something didnt work out

so youre obviously SUPPOSED to be alive
youre meant to be something
be someone

stay alive love :)

[DarkWingedAngel]

I don't know what I want anymore.
I wanna just role up in a ball and die, but I don't at the same time.
I'm so confused.
Life is just a bitch. I cant take it anymore.
But im to afraid to kill myself.
Yet I don't want to kill myself.
grrrrr ahhh I'm so confused!

[just-me]

if there is one single doubt in your mind that you dont want to die, or your too scared which is often because somethin is holdin you back, dont do it. you can never take it back.

[DarkWingedAngel]

Well I don't know what I want anymore!
im really confused now