xchemicallyromancedx
November 6th, 2008, 08:38 PM
Okay. I'm so freakng stupid. I have a bad day. ONE bad day. Which turned out okay after school. AT school I ignored my friend for no apparent reason, other than punishing myself for not completing HW and not practicing Violin. I feel REALLY bad for it. And I didn't eat breakfast, barely ate lunch, was depressed all day and ready to faint by the last period.... Ugh. So I get home and everything's pretty much fine after that.
Then it's the issue of acne. ACNE that I've had since I was like 11 that really isn't that bad, but I can't leave it the F*** alone. It's on my shoulders and I can't HELP but mess with it and that got me very pissed at myself, then I started thinking about how I was a bitch today.. and guess what. I got to the kitchen and get a knife, and, well, saw at myself in the bathroom for awhile. On my left shoulder, and on my left wrist, not enough to bleed but enough to make a mark and it stings on my wrist...
Gaah.. What an idiot I am. :mad: I couldn't BEAR to do it in my room. With all my MCR posters. They'd be disappointed. I couldn't. And I shouldn't have. WHat the hell do I do now????? I hate this.
Then it's the issue of acne. ACNE that I've had since I was like 11 that really isn't that bad, but I can't leave it the F*** alone. It's on my shoulders and I can't HELP but mess with it and that got me very pissed at myself, then I started thinking about how I was a bitch today.. and guess what. I got to the kitchen and get a knife, and, well, saw at myself in the bathroom for awhile. On my left shoulder, and on my left wrist, not enough to bleed but enough to make a mark and it stings on my wrist...
Gaah.. What an idiot I am. :mad: I couldn't BEAR to do it in my room. With all my MCR posters. They'd be disappointed. I couldn't. And I shouldn't have. WHat the hell do I do now????? I hate this.