Fiending_the_freedom
November 5th, 2008, 09:38 PM
So,
i've posted before that my best friend laila (whos living with me),
is seeing this guy, patrick, that i used to be involved with about 6 months ago before me and brendan made up and got back together.
well she knows we were involved,
but i never told him that we slept together, once.
she just found out.
she called me, and flipped.
I told her i have no excuse it was stupid and i didnt tell her because i was afraid to admit i was wrong, and afraid of her judgment. she called me a stupid bitch and that shes moving out then hung up on me.
she was at patricks house when that happened, someone that was there told me she locked herself in the bathroom.
and she was talking to patrick in there.
this happened a couple hours ago, i haven't talked to her since.
I know it was stupid of me to lie to her, and especially when they got involved i should have,
i feel really bad because she's really hurt from it.
do you think what i did was that bad?
its especially bad because about 2 years ago i slept with her ex (when they were broken up) and lied about it for a year. then she found out and eventually she forgave me, but told me not to lie anymore.
I'm worried thought that shes going to tell brendan, because i cant deal with being yelled at anymore by him. because when she gets mad at me she gets stubborn and tells him shit that i dont want him to know.
when she called me, i started shaking, my nerves are terrible right now, i had the whole "flight or fight" adrenaline rush.
This is such bad timing for this, i already feel so alone, and depressed. got i wonder how bad this is going to get with her.
i've posted before that my best friend laila (whos living with me),
is seeing this guy, patrick, that i used to be involved with about 6 months ago before me and brendan made up and got back together.
well she knows we were involved,
but i never told him that we slept together, once.
she just found out.
she called me, and flipped.
I told her i have no excuse it was stupid and i didnt tell her because i was afraid to admit i was wrong, and afraid of her judgment. she called me a stupid bitch and that shes moving out then hung up on me.
she was at patricks house when that happened, someone that was there told me she locked herself in the bathroom.
and she was talking to patrick in there.
this happened a couple hours ago, i haven't talked to her since.
I know it was stupid of me to lie to her, and especially when they got involved i should have,
i feel really bad because she's really hurt from it.
do you think what i did was that bad?
its especially bad because about 2 years ago i slept with her ex (when they were broken up) and lied about it for a year. then she found out and eventually she forgave me, but told me not to lie anymore.
I'm worried thought that shes going to tell brendan, because i cant deal with being yelled at anymore by him. because when she gets mad at me she gets stubborn and tells him shit that i dont want him to know.
when she called me, i started shaking, my nerves are terrible right now, i had the whole "flight or fight" adrenaline rush.
This is such bad timing for this, i already feel so alone, and depressed. got i wonder how bad this is going to get with her.