the confession

[just-me]

my mum finally got out of me the feelings of paranoia, anxiety, worthlessness, depression and alienation i feel everyday. no she does not know the full extent, or my SH but she has rang the doctor and im goin for an appointment with my GP in 3 days.
what can i expect? and how does it all start?
"hi whats wrong"
"i feel like crap 24/7" ?

help

[xGreenling]

Anything's a start. Congrats on taking the first step to getting better!

Yeah, you've got a pretty good idea of how it is on a first visit... but if you know the GP it might be easier. Just remember to breathe, and try and talk about everything as honestly as you can. I mean, your doctor gets paid to do this, they should be able to sit and listen. If you feel uncomfortable, just say so.

[just-me]

i think i would actually prefer someone i dont know tbh. it felt awful telling my parents after so many years of hurting, i felt awful, like a disappointment. but im actually dreading gettin diagnosed with anythin, i know if i did i would probably keep it to myself and just not tell anyone. its all just such a daughnting though :/

[Avalikia]

Well if you do get diagnosed with something, that is both good and bad. The bad part you already know, but the good part is that almost any diagnosis comes with a treatment and a treatment means that things get better.

What you can expect is questions mostly; you'd be surprised how many different reasons there are for people to feel paranoid, anxious, and depressed and your doctor will have to sort through a lot of things to get to the point where they know what to recommend for you. Your doctor may want to check your thyroid because hypothyroidism causes many of the same symptoms as clinical depression and this requires a blood test. After all of this your doctor will offer recommendations, and this could mean a referral to a specialist, medication, and/or therapy depending on what they find.

[just-me]

really? i didnt know most of that. thanks. im just scared of the unknown really :/

[Halibut]

honestly once they are sitting in front of you. it just starts flowing out. and it feels good too. be honest and say what you want. they dont judge you.

[Buggahh]

Your doctor will know stuff about your background that maybe you don't remember so you shouldn't have to fill them in on that sort of stuff my mum went in with me and she kept saying how i felt i was like eugh its for me to say not you. But that's in the past. The doctor will ask what the problem is then just take your time or if its too hard write it down but doctors are good at gently getting things out of you. Nothing to worry about.