Ain't the truth painful?

[Atonement]

Well, tonight, it sucks. Because for the first time in ages, my dad got on MSN like he used to when he cared. Well, appearently he wanted to talk, or so he said. Well, he didn't want to talk. He wanted me to listen more. He asked why I had been so upset with him, and I lightly and calmy repsonded the truth. How I felt abandoned, misguide, and neglected. Well, he decided that I shouldn't be bitching about what I had coming since I was such an accidental waste of sperm and egg and the biggest pain he ever had to deal with.

Peachy stuff to find out now. Eh?

Atop all of this, my depression is slowly getting worse,
my cutting, though subsided, is always right there by my side
yet, the anxiety, even with improved medication, has escalated.

[NightHawksr71]

Well theres not much I can do to help but sorry about your dad. that sucks. as for your depression isn't there anyone that can help with that? relative? close friend? Doctor or counselor? I don't exactly know what I can do to help.

but good luck mate and I hope you get through this.

[Atonement]

Oh for anyone t hat doesn't know, I am on medication, been to doctors, in therapy, the works.

[iJack]

Even tho he said those horrible things, do not believe them. Your dad sounds, to me, to be a complete asshole and dosent deserve to have a child like you.
For the depression, go buy a microphone and join us on skype every night :P.

[theOperaGhost]

He has a mic, Jack...

Addi, we already talked about this, so I don't really have anymore comments to add except that I'm always here for you. I'll always listen to you, unless I'm in class or have to go to class, and you know that.

[xGreenling]

You shouldn't have to feel down - even if your dad said some really nasty things, you just have to keep hanging in there. He doesn't determine what you're worth, you're the only one with that power.

[nachtspiegel]

He sounds like a useless piece of shit. He doesn't deserve you. He's nothing but a sperm donor. Real fathers don't treat their sons or daughters that way. If he has any humanity, he will look back one day and see the wonderful person that he passed up on. I truly mean that.

[Rutherford The Brave]

You know Addi, I'm going through the exact same thing. Noori and I almost broke up and I told my dad that there could be a chance that I would move in with him. But when I told him I wasn't going to do it, he told me my mother would've hated me, it kind of sent me into a spiral. It's definatly tough, but your smart be the bigger man and don't let him know he's getting to you.

[Halibut]

show him diffrent. do something great. become something great. show him you wernt a waste of sperm and egg. Prove him wrong. do it for yourself.

[Buggahh]

Firstly, people telling him how horrible his dad is really isn't going to help but yes i do agree that what he did was wrong. But I can tell you this now it's him that will make you bigger and better its his words that will turn your life around.
He probably said it in the heat of the moment. It is the things people say that hurt us the most and over time they eat away at them, that however is if we chose not to deal with them, just move on show him that he's wrong.