rape

[DarkWingedAngel]

i don't know where this is supposed to go so feel free to move it if it is in the wrong place

well i have always thought that i was raped
well i was right
i got a life story from when i was born to the age of 4 1/2
it said i was raped a few days before i got adopted there for i was 4 1/2
so for the past 2 weeks i have been having terrible flashbacks like im there now(but im not)
i don't know what is going on with me

my friends found out and are being like real friends

but im really scarred
can you help

[Atonement]

What are you scared of? I mean, in theory, if you know no memories of it nor know much about it, you shouldn't have problems. But, if you start to become depressed, I would see a doctor. It is serious that you were raped. But, if you can live before fine without knowing it, you can continue with it. We have have faith in you.

[DarkWingedAngel]

well i have always had that feeling that i was and i had started having flashbacks 2 or 3 months ago

just before the time i tried to kill myself

i just feel like there is no point in life anymore

[Atonement]

you know what I'm going to say Desi. You need to see a doctor. You need to tell your parents. You need to at least tell a trusted adult. You need to get help. You know it. We all know it. It ishard, I know, but it is so helpful. This could be a delayed PTSD and lets face it, the self harm and depression needs to be fixed too.

[byee]

Desi, refresh my memory. Are you in therapy? If you are, you need to talk with your doctor about this. If you're not, you should be. A therapist will help you understand these feelings, make sense if them, and deal with them effectively so you're not so terrified.

People can feel terror even when they don't remember things, but are later told of things they've experienced earlier in their lives. Repressed memories, maybe. Or maybe just the realization that you were vulnerable and victimized, that's terrifiying enough. FDR 'resaauringly' said 'there's nothing to fear but fear itself', which kinda sounds reassuring until you realize that fear is pretty darn terrifying all by itself!

Whatever it was that happened to you is mercifully over, however finding about it might have reopened old wounds and feelings of vulnerability and violation. Talk it out, Desi, put it into proper perspective and you'll be OK.

[DarkWingedAngel]

well im not going to see anyone at the moment
first my mom thinks i have stopped cutting
second she does not even know that i tried to commit suicide

[iJack]

Then keep having terrible flashbacks.

[DarkWingedAngel]

fine
as much as i don't want to i will anyways

[byee]

I'm not sure what that last psot meant, Desi. But, if you're not seeing anyone in therapy, then you should. Tell your mom, get back into therapy.

[Sapphire]

This is a serious crime that you suffered and you should be talking about this with someone. It is difficult enough for adults to deal with, let alone a 14 year old. Just because your mum thinks that things are ok, doesn't mean that you should deny yourself the right to talk through your situation and emotions with someone. It is all kept confidential unless they strongly believe that you are a danger to yourself or other people.

Don't mean to offend, but how can you have flashbacks of something you only became aware of because it was written down? You have to have memories before you can have flashbacks.

[mcldvdtdd]

see a doctor
its is most likely post-traumatic stress syndrome

[Zephyr]

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