Hmm.

[nachtspiegel]

Every day for the past seven to ten days, I've been having random moments where it feels like my heart suddenly stops beating, I lose all balance, I lose my breath, and in rare events, these are accompanied with a sudden loss of vision and hearing. It has been happening at least one time a day, but as many as four or five times a day. It doesn't happen at selected moments (ie, when standing up,) it just happens randomly. It can happen while I'm sitting, laying down, or walking and moving. Before these started happening, and for a while now, I've been having random moments of dizziness. When I lay in a certain position while on my back, the left side of the back of my head hurts, causes me to suddenly tremble and lose vision until I move. My mom refuses to take me to the doctor. I'm already going to see a surgeon and an orthodontist next month. She quit taking me to the hospital-mandated therapy and counseling sessions because she was tired of taking time out of her routine. When I told her that I was going to talk to my therapist about taking the family sessions out of my treatment plan (because my mother would be the only one to possibly be or be able to be there) she (my mother) simply responded by ceasing any further communication with the mental health center. My case has since been closed. I think I may need to go to a doctor, but I'd rather have feedback before I go to fight with her about this.

[Atonement]

Well if you can, find a friend to drive you if you can?

Besides how to see a doctor, if this problematic? is it preventing your normal function? How long are you blacked out or dizzy etc.

It sounds like that random falling asleep syndrome. But, there is a disorder where when pressure is applied to a certain nerve (in your case, your back) the brain falls "asleep" which you are trying to stay up, but your brain says no. Now, whether this is you, Idk, I'm not a doctor, but the best way to find out, is a doctor, which i realize you can't see. You need to clamly discuss with your mom that it is interfering with your life.

[nachtspiegel]

Getting there isn't so much the problem - I walked several miles the other day to go schedule a test because it was the quickest and easiest way to get both there and back.
It's the fact that with most every appointment, she has to be there because I'm underage.

The only person she's ever been really willing to take for medical treatment on any level is my sister. She is eighteen now, but before, if she would've complained because her hair was sitting the wrong way, my mom would be on the phone with the health clinic.

I'm trying to give it time to pass, and I hope it will.
Even with my most recent suicide attempt, she responded by saying "good luck" and going to bed.

[Atonement]

Wow, no offense to you or anything, but what a bitch. Thats neglegence... I'm sure you know that. Maybe try to convince her to go along just out of curiousity of this strange effect?

[byee]

First, would you mind using larger print here, it's hard to see and I don't want to miss anything.

Second, yes, you should absolutely positively continue with therapy even if you have to walk there! I'm not sure about the part where your mom needs to be there, though. If you're a minor, she needs to give consent, but I thought it was between you and the therapist how those sessions should be used and who should participate. Maybe you and s/he could determine that you'll meet alone for a while, thereby allowing your mom to not participate and you continue without her.

I'm not so sure about your symptoms. Whenever there's physical symptoms, I always think an MD should evealuate them just to make sure. maybe their cause is physical, maybe psychological. Is there an MD at the MHC you go to? Usually there is, a psychiatrist, maybe you can schedule an appt. the next time you're there.