xxSilentScreamerxx
October 20th, 2008, 02:54 PM
I really dont know whats wrong with me.
I have posted a few diffrent posts around but yeah..
I know that im very diffrent to other people. My mind works very diffrently.. I used to think i was possessed.. I still get voices in my head when things get bad. I even named him.
I get very depressed and i do self harm.
I have thoughts of how i could hurt myself and i even try hurting my friends or bf sometimes when im angry by biting or scratching.
Im grown up for my age as in i take on alot of responsabilies but its like theres a child in me as i switch to a very small child. Some people say to stop having tantrums like a child but its how i am. no one understands that i change to a child personality, mostly happens when its triggered.
I have thoughts of doing things. some of them i have acted on in the past e.g Drawing with my blood, taking pictures of it ect.
I struggle to except change and routine.
Sometimes i do try starv myself or threaten to not eat. Its not for attention, its being in control which is a very big issue for me as i feel i have to be in control otherwise im going crazy.
So yeah, not sure if thats everything..
Anyway thanks for reading if you got this far
x
I have posted a few diffrent posts around but yeah..
I know that im very diffrent to other people. My mind works very diffrently.. I used to think i was possessed.. I still get voices in my head when things get bad. I even named him.
I get very depressed and i do self harm.
I have thoughts of how i could hurt myself and i even try hurting my friends or bf sometimes when im angry by biting or scratching.
Im grown up for my age as in i take on alot of responsabilies but its like theres a child in me as i switch to a very small child. Some people say to stop having tantrums like a child but its how i am. no one understands that i change to a child personality, mostly happens when its triggered.
I have thoughts of doing things. some of them i have acted on in the past e.g Drawing with my blood, taking pictures of it ect.
I struggle to except change and routine.
Sometimes i do try starv myself or threaten to not eat. Its not for attention, its being in control which is a very big issue for me as i feel i have to be in control otherwise im going crazy.
So yeah, not sure if thats everything..
Anyway thanks for reading if you got this far
x