Hurting yourself and others..

[xxSilentScreamerxx]

I have self harmed for 3 years but lately ive not only felt like hurting myself but hurting other people too.
When im angry i just wanna scratch someone/dig my nails into them or bite. Its not random people. Its just my friends or my boyfriend. Ill get angry and go for them. My boyfriend will do it back to me (hoping that it will stop me from doing it, and he will shout at me too for it) but i like it cos i like other people hurting me too. I know what im doing is wrong but i cant help it..
What is this about? It kinda worrys me cos this is something i didnt used to do.
x

[just-me]

hmm i could be completely off the mark but maybe it has somethin to do with s&m? maybe u wana read up on it see if it apllys to you?

[xxSilentScreamerxx]

dont wanna be dumb but what is s&m?

[Hyper]

dont wanna be dumb but what is s&m?

Well in this case he means sadomasochism

Sexual roleplay.. But I read your other thread and I really can't say anything all that helpful to you except that you should see a professional. Unless you wan't to try and fight depression on your own which is not a good idea

[xxSilentScreamerxx]

ok but i dont get sexual feelings from it.

[Hyper]

ok but i dont get sexual feelings from it.

You know it doesn't have to be sexual to be somekind of a fetish.. They just like to classify it as sexual

[Underground_Network]

I can't really help you too much, except to say that I have urges to hurt other people (as well as myself) too, BUT...
Sadomasochism is NOT limited to sexual roleplay, in fact it isn't even really roleplay, it doesn't need to be sexual. Sadism is enjoying causing others pain, masochism is enjoying causing yourself pain, the two combined either refer to having someone else cause you pain, or to someone who enjoys both inflicting and receiving pain, which, for the most part, seems to describe you. So yeah, you could be sadomasochistic, but the only person that can probably truly determine that is you yourself, or a psychiatrist/psychologist.

[xxSilentScreamerxx]

ok thankyou x

[Donkey]

This may just be a way your body and your hormones are trying to express anger and emotions. Get a punchbag or something? Punch a wall? Something that doesn't hurt others, as some people don't want to be hurt. Maybe play some violent games like GTA?

[Michalalay]

s&m is a metallica album =]

haha.. im cool.. XD

[byee]

Wait, I think we're falling into that ditch by the side of the road here by assuming b/c it involves a b/f it must somehow be sexual (S&M).

There's nothing in your description that would even remotely suggest this is sexual in nature, these urges to hurt you loved ones. Rather, it sounds ike whatever underlying rage you have is being directed at the most convienent (and safest) sources. However it's not a good thing, as you know, b/c it has nothing to do with whatever troubles you, and it becomes a problem in itself.

I do hope you have a good therapist to talk with and learn from here. If you do not, make it a goal to tell someone and get to one, OK? This doesn't sound like something that will go away on it's own.

[foof1]

I think that instead of taking your anger and pain out on yourself and others you should talk to them about because I think that you might want attention or it might be a subconcious way of seeking help. Maybe you're angry at them for not seeing how you feel and you don't feel like any one is helping you.

[xxSilentScreamerxx]

Thanks everyone the last few posts really helped x