Help me! :(

[eatingdiswhy11]

i get so confused. & i feel so stupid when i tell ppl this kind of stuff. but i think i'm literally insane. I'm not sure exactly what's wrong, but i try to make myself look perfect, act perfect. I can't make decisions, it's like there's two ppl inside my head telling me to do TWO completly DIFFERENT things at ONCE. it's not a voice.. its just like my thinking goes against itself..thats the only other way i can explain itt.
:'(

but mostly. this is so important, my hearing is distorted or limited or something is very very WRONG. the doctor says it's normal but i know how i used to be able to hear, and i know it not normal FOR ME.

& there's little sqiggly line imperfections/dots in my vision.
i can only lokk at a very small section at a time.. like the stuff you see out of the corner of your eye.. its all mesed up.. its like its not there.. like i have shifty eyes now to look around and see everything..

am i crazy? i'm so sorry :( please give me your timee cuz i feel so depressed and i need someone to understand :( :( :(

[electric7rocker]

you might not be getting enough sleep or getting enough water/food
thats what happens to me

[Ultraviolet]

Your not crazy. It's okay to be concerned about things particularly both your physical and mental health. Trying going to a different doctor or even a specialist if you can for your hearing and eye sight. When things aren't normal you really do need to get them check out. It could be nothing or something quite serious.

As for trying to act perfect perhaps you are just a perfectionist? That comes with both pros and cons you know. Comes in very handy with school work if you can apply it to that. The conflicting decision making perhaps that lies with depression? I know it is a symptom of it and you said you were depressed but like anything to do with an illness it must be diganosed.

Anyways hope you feel better about stuff and things can be sorted out. Don't ever feel stupid for opening up, it's a good thing, it really is. Just be selective about it. :D