Ceilidh
September 18th, 2008, 05:57 PM
http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/publications/borderline-personality-disorder.shtml
I written out a thread here before on this... but didn't like to post it in case I was wrong, I also thought I was being paranoid about the whole thing.
Well, I'm not too sure where I first heard about this disorder (I think it was online) and everything I have read about it I can relate to, so much that it scares me.
My moods change so much lately, I'm either happy as hell, feel emotionless, get depressed or in the worst case scenarios want to die as life just doesn't seem worth it anymore (luckily my 'bad moods' only seem to last a few hours.. mostly at night for some reason, maybe because I'm alone? Idk)
I get emotionaly attached to people too easily, I could get along with them great one week and almost hate them the next. Me and interpersonal relationships never go down well tbh :( I always feel like people will leave and hurt me, so in the end is it really worth it? I just can't trust people.
I'm about 80% sure I have this, obviously you can't tell if I have or not just by me posting this thread, I was just wondering... should I go and see someone? if so, who? what should I say? I just don't know anymore.
I hate social situations because I find it hard to talk to new people (low self esteme) and what not, but I also fear being alone, I want relationships with people I just find it hard to get close.
Oh yeah, I taken a test online about this aswell (not the greatest idea I know, but it has been worrying me)
Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate
URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
Edit:// Okay, I just looked up avoidant personality disorder too (http://www.mentalhealth.com/dis/p20-pe08.html) once again, sounds dead on >____< eugh, I hate this.
I written out a thread here before on this... but didn't like to post it in case I was wrong, I also thought I was being paranoid about the whole thing.
Well, I'm not too sure where I first heard about this disorder (I think it was online) and everything I have read about it I can relate to, so much that it scares me.
My moods change so much lately, I'm either happy as hell, feel emotionless, get depressed or in the worst case scenarios want to die as life just doesn't seem worth it anymore (luckily my 'bad moods' only seem to last a few hours.. mostly at night for some reason, maybe because I'm alone? Idk)
I get emotionaly attached to people too easily, I could get along with them great one week and almost hate them the next. Me and interpersonal relationships never go down well tbh :( I always feel like people will leave and hurt me, so in the end is it really worth it? I just can't trust people.
I'm about 80% sure I have this, obviously you can't tell if I have or not just by me posting this thread, I was just wondering... should I go and see someone? if so, who? what should I say? I just don't know anymore.
I hate social situations because I find it hard to talk to new people (low self esteme) and what not, but I also fear being alone, I want relationships with people I just find it hard to get close.
Oh yeah, I taken a test online about this aswell (not the greatest idea I know, but it has been worrying me)
Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate
URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
Edit:// Okay, I just looked up avoidant personality disorder too (http://www.mentalhealth.com/dis/p20-pe08.html) once again, sounds dead on >____< eugh, I hate this.