Spiral

[Atonement]

Right, so I know its dumb being a mod and asking for help, but yeah.

So, I am out of control. At the beginning of summer, I was perfect, I didn't cut, I was perfect. Well now, my stress of school and everything, its overwhelmed me. And I know people will be like go to a counselor etc.

I have exhausted all resources. I have a psychiatrist, I have medication, I have a therapist, I have all this support and everything yet, its sitllout of control. I dont know what to do. I can control it. But at the expense of instead freaking out and vomitting, crying, shaking, and instead wanting to die. I dont want to die. But I still hate life.

I dont know why I am posting, but if anyone has any suggestions, or if you feel you want to talk... I need help. Sorry.

[Mzor203]

I don't really know what to say Addi, but if you want to talk to me if you see me on MSN, go ahead.

It must be really hard being in a situation where it seems there's no way out. But there always is, somehow. It may not be apparent right now, but it's important to find it.

If you do cut, you're harming yourself and pushing the problem further in one direction, but if you don't then your anxiety rears its nasty head.

Now, firstly, how much support are you getting from your Mom here? This is really important. Help from family is important, and at least it seems she's supported you in getting the meds. But is there anything more she can do to help? Or are there other people who you think can help you?

Next, let's think about some things that could help keep you calm and control your anxiety. Are there any activities you really enjoy, or that you find calm you down? Maybe tea helps you relax (That was just a random example). If you can find something that helps, maybe you could try that instead of cutting.

I'm sorry I'm not much help. This is a hard situation. But feel free to talk whenever.

[theOperaGhost]

Addison, you know you can talk to me any time when I'm on. There really isn't much I can do to help you. I do keep thinking of ways to help, but I can't do anything, except talk to you, listen to you, maybe distract you for a while. I am always willing to listen to anything you have to say, and you know that.

You do need help, and there's got to be something out there to help you, but finding help seems to be difficult. I know you can stop, because you want to stop. I have faith in you, and I will be here whenever you want to talk.

[Antares]

Addi!
Life sucks.
But it can get better.
I know you feel that there is nothing left for you to do or go to but I am sure there are, you just have to find them. I think that if you remain strong then you will get through this.
Otherwise remain positive and if you need someone to talk to I am here and there are others here too :D
:hug:

[electric7rocker]

if you can get into one of those... in-patient hospital things.. i would suggest doing so.

[Atonement]

if you can get into one of those... in-patient hospital things.. i would suggest doing so.

Been there, done that. made it worse...

[electric7rocker]

:/ ill keep brainstorming....