god. i feel more worthless than ever

[Fiending_the_freedom]

Im fucked.
so so upset.
i'm like on the border of a havning a panic attack.
long story short.
party i had=diodnt work out= cops ca,e...four times.
they fucking laughed in my face when i asked if they had a warrent. HA JUST BECAUSE IM FUCKING UNDERAGE.
WTF.
they're like "oh we got a lawyer on our hands"
UMM NO IM STUPID AS SHIT BUT IM SMART ENOUGH TO KNOW THAT YOUR FUCKED.
im so upset
because my brother said a lot of shit to me
basically saying im no good as him.
...
just in case any of you that dont know
this is my brother who
punched me in the face
twice
like actually
had to go to school
saying i ran into a door.

and hes telling me im no better than him

so because im so stupid
and so miserable

i cut myself
for the first time in 7 months
i was trying to go at least a year
to prove i wasnt addicted any more
well there goes that,
now i cat prove than i have beaten any of my addictions.
great,
im so stupid.
yes i just feel like i subconcently do this so the peopel io love will give up on me.

[Oblivion]

Im so sorry :(
That sucks.
BUT:
A) You definitely AREN'T stupid.
B) If your brother has to punch you int he face and say hes better than you, most likely hes not. Just remember that.
C) I know how hard it is to not do something for sooo long, and then in a few minutes that whole record is ruined. But, the best part is, you get to start again. So please, for VT, and me, try again to make a year, because you can break the habit.

[Atonement]

Honey, calm down. Its okay. You aren't stupid, everyone has feeling and make mistakes. You know it in your heart. Don't take any shit from your brother. Don't give him the power to determine how you feel. As for the cutting, love, the fact that you made is seven months is astonishing enough to me. Hell a year is just amazing. So though I am sorry that you cut, I am happy you made it this long. :) If you want to talk further, feel free to PM me.