I'm never hungry anymore.

[hikatie]

I don't really understand it. I haven't been hungry in over a week. In the past few days the most I've eaten is half of a mini bagel and a two smoothies, if those even count as food. I'm not taking any weird medication or anything that would stop me from feeling hungry. I'm just not hungry, I guess. But it's causing me to loose weight, which I honestly don't really want to do. I'm already at a size I'm happy with, and now none of my pants fit without a belt. Which pisses me off because I hate belts. And I don't want to buy new pants.

[ShatteredWings]

are you overly stressed out lately? that can cause a notable loss in appetite.

I don't think you have an eating disorder at all, you don't want too loose weight, and obviously your body image isn't distorted.

What you might want to do, is simply, make yourself eat at least twice a day. Make yourself eat two meals, yeah i know you're not hungery, but you really should

[hikatie]

Yes, I suppose I am fairly stressed out lately. I eat when I remember too, but remembering to eat unfortunately doesn't happen often. Hahaha

[ShatteredWings]

you're in school right? well, lunch time, EAT lunch. If your not, set a quiet alarm to go off at noon, and eat something.

I'm not sure what to do about dinner time, maybe when you get home from whatever you do during the day?

[hikatie]

I'm not in school anymore, I just graduated. I used to have an alarm on my phone set to remind me. Today I didn't eat anything, and I went out to dinner and when we got our food I suddenly felt full. Like I had already eaten the food, but I hadn't. I felt so nauseous I had to just box up my food and take it home. One of my roommates is probably going to end up eating it. :P

[byee]

Hi Katie (I got it!)

lack of appetite can be caused by many things, some of them psychological/emotional, some physical. A complete loss of appetite, though, to the point of feeling nausea at the sight of food, and a noticeable weight loss, indicates that it's time to see your doctor and have him evaluate the cause.

[hikatie]

I'm not terribly fond of doctors. I'm always afraid they're going to drug test me or something. :P
But I kind of have a feeling that what is stressing me out is causing my loss of appetite. I just have absolutely no idea of how to deal with what has been causing the stress.

[ShatteredWings]

Hm, i read the post in the secrete thread, i think i know too.

anywayss

What do you like to do that helps? I don't know, maybe if you get some exersize (helps most people, it's how i be surviving xD) you could relive some stress (and, if you're not hungry, i'd be SERIOUSLY worried)

[Rutherford The Brave]

Stuff like stress, emotional problems, anxiety, nervousness can cause lack of appetite. Are you sure you are not any of these?

[hikatie]

girl;353989']Hm, i read the post in the secrete thread, i think i know too.

anywayss

What do you like to do that helps? I don't know, maybe if you get some exersize (helps most people, it's how i be surviving xD) you could relive some stress (and, if you're not hungry, i'd be SERIOUSLY worried)

I don't really have a problem with relieving stress. I am usually able to do that quite quickly. It just comes back, you know? I almost feel... apprehensive sometimes, when I shouldn't. I guess I feel apprehensive because I should be going to college soon, and what has been bothering me happened when I was visiting a friend at college. Eh, it's all really confusing to think about.

[byee]

well, if you told us what happened there that stressed you out we might be better able to help you with it.

[hikatie]

I was raped at a party.

[Rutherford The Brave]

Wow.....I'm sorry sweetheart. Listen, did you tell someone? I'm just hoping your all right, still I'm afraid holding out on eating isn't exactly the right way to do it. I advise you though, stuff like that has the tendency to put many people in emotional spirils. You need some help, I fear the worst and you should to.

[hikatie]

Nah, I'm fine. I don't really like sympathy.
I'm starting to think that I'm just feeling really nervous all the time and that's causing me to have very little appetite. That's at least what I'm hoping.

[byee]

Katie! That's terrible, horrible! You have to tell someone and get some help! You absolutely positively should not be going thru this all alone.

Your symptoms are undboubtly the result of the trauma of getting raped. You'll notice how utterly confident I am here, moreso than my usual knowitall self. I really feel strongly that you must tell someone and get some proper attention, i do not think this will go away on it's own.

Let's work on plan to do that. Who, what adult, do you trust that you can tell?

[hikatie]

The friend I went to the party with is legally an adult, if that counts. I've talked to her about it. She was the person that took me to the clinic the next morning. I don't really feel like I need to deal with it though. I don't know how to explain it. I feel like it is done and over with, and that it happened a year ago. I just want to be able to get back to eating normally. :/

[byee]

Katie, if you've lost your appetite, it doesn't sound like you're 'over it'. These things have a way of staying with you and festering until they're addressed. Most likely, the trauma of being sexually assaulted caused your current symptoms 9and maybe some others).

I'm not sure what your resistance to therapy here is, but if you want to feel better, you really should go.

[hikatie]

I've tried talking to therapists before. I don't feel like I'm able to talk to them about it. It's like as I try to talk about it I run through the sentences and phrases over, and over again until they've completely diminished into sentences of nothing.

Sorry if that doesn't make sense. I just got home from chillin', and I'm a little burnt out.

[hikatie]

I know it seems like I'm being a complete stubborn ass, but I think I'll be fine. Really.

[byee]

Ok, if you think you'll be fine, then I'll stop.

However, your loss of appetite would suggest otherwise.

[hikatie]

I know, I mean, I don't know. Hahh. I was kind of blazed when I left those last posts. I'm not really sure if I meant what I said. Or if I did. I don't know. I'm kind of blazed again. Good weekend.

Oh, and I don't condone smoking dope! (Right? I think that's what I'm supposed to say.)