Why do i feel this way??

[MilkDud]

Ok so i hate the term "gay" and i think its gross
but for some reason i think sexually about some of my friends
and mostly younger boys but not really young just like 12-14
i masterbate while thinking about them and i dont know why
i still like girls and masterbate to them too

so will i grow out of this??

[Oblivion]

"Lots of heterosexual men have fantasies about other guys, sometimes at the peak of orgasm, and this leaves them feeling very insecure. It's one of the most carefully kept secrets in male society. (But not on JackinWorld!) You're really only gay when you've concluded, without a doubt, that you enjoy males sexually more than females. Random fantasies and even sexual encounters don't make you gay."

Quoted from JackinWorld.com
And its absolutely right.
A lot of guys have fantasies of other guys sexually.
Its no big deal.

[Antares]

There is no reason to hate the term 'gay'. Being homosexual is perfectly fine.