[[chickaroo92]]
August 11th, 2008, 06:52 PM
Hope you're happy with me. I know over the past I haven't been the good, outgoing person I have been once upon a time. BUT why me? I have my own fucking problems why the hell do you put me through other people's lives? Am I suppose to sit in the middle of everyones problems and help them out, expecting absolutely nothing? Gah. I have just officially gone insane... this is insane.
I hate my job. I hate my parents. I hate my siblings. Hell, only two days ago dad and I had a marvelous chat about this boy who happens to be a friend of mine, and got a girl pregnant at aged thirteen, and now you're worried he'll get me next? Has it ever occurred to him that I'm a FUCKING VIRGIN? and i will stay as one until I'm married perhaps? where were you God, when that happened? how come you couldn't bill me out? Oh wait... let's see... because you decided that the kid didn't need to live anymore? Hmph. Where were you when I was "committing" a sin by doing some stuff with someone online? huh? (nobody from here, no worries). Or why does everybody blame everything on me? I'm that kid that you point to and say, "shes bad...stay FAR away". Fuck that. I'm the biggest hypocrit you'll ever meet. I can't even follow my own advice. that's how stupid I am.
Have you punished me enough G-d? with this fucked up life I have? or is it just the beginning? How about the fact I LOVED HIM, and you wouldn't let him be mine? Instead you had a slut for him. What's the point of living, if I can't be happy? I'm sick and tired of pretending to be, when I'm not.
I hate my job. I hate my parents. I hate my siblings. Hell, only two days ago dad and I had a marvelous chat about this boy who happens to be a friend of mine, and got a girl pregnant at aged thirteen, and now you're worried he'll get me next? Has it ever occurred to him that I'm a FUCKING VIRGIN? and i will stay as one until I'm married perhaps? where were you God, when that happened? how come you couldn't bill me out? Oh wait... let's see... because you decided that the kid didn't need to live anymore? Hmph. Where were you when I was "committing" a sin by doing some stuff with someone online? huh? (nobody from here, no worries). Or why does everybody blame everything on me? I'm that kid that you point to and say, "shes bad...stay FAR away". Fuck that. I'm the biggest hypocrit you'll ever meet. I can't even follow my own advice. that's how stupid I am.
Have you punished me enough G-d? with this fucked up life I have? or is it just the beginning? How about the fact I LOVED HIM, and you wouldn't let him be mine? Instead you had a slut for him. What's the point of living, if I can't be happy? I'm sick and tired of pretending to be, when I'm not.