Nothing Worst than.....

[AllThatIsLeft]

I found that there is nothing worse than hear your mother,
someone you adore and love beyond your own life...

Say over and over that they want to suicide.
that everytime she sees a moving car she'd like to jump in front of it,
that everytime she takes a pill she'd like to make that water vodka,
and that everytime she uses a knife to make dinner she'd like to jab it straight into the heart.

and beyond all, what is worst is that you can't do anything to stop it from happening, and HOPE, just hope that she won't do any of those thing.

[Maverick]

That's so sad. My mom used to talk about suicide a couple years ago. She would talk about driving a car and purposely crashing to her death. She would also attempt to stab herself with knifes and the police would have to be called. She even took all her pills with alcohol and nearly died. So I can definitely relate to how you feel. I used to go to school worried she might not be alive when I get home.

Why is she wanting to kill herself? Has she ever seen a psychiatrist? What's your situation?

[Rutherford The Brave]

I'm sorry, yet I have never seen or heard that from my mother, seeing as she is dead. Yes though that is so sad, I mean that would break my spirit. Yet in my opinion, nothing is worse than being 2 and seeing your mom dead in a car accident. Still you should talk to her and tell her that see needs to see someone.

[Oblivion]

Im sorry :(
You should talk to her, and ask her to get help.
If she refuses, ask an adult, like your school counselor, if they can help out.

[byee]

This is awful for you, I am so sorry.

I hope you have someone there who you can talk with, who can get your mom the help she needs and also give you the support you need, it must be terrifying. Your dad, other relatives, counselors?

Whatever your mom struggles with, whatever is causing these horrible urges can be addressed if she gets to someone, so what you need to try to make that happen. And, if there's anything I can do, please let me know.

[The Batman]

Whenever she starts talking like this just grab her and hold her. You need to let her know that you still care, give her a reason to live. When she starts getting better than try and get her some help.

[AllThatIsLeft]

when you live like we do help is very hard to get.
i mean we live with our aunt and her husband, and though it is a nice house,
the mental state of everyone is very low.
all we want to do is get out of here, but sadly our resources( money) are not enough, and if we leave we will end up in the streets.

my mom who is a very selfless person, would never use the money to see a psychiatrist, when it could be saved to get out of this house, which of course is the source of our problems.

i am very good at talking like a psychologist, i try to help as much as i can, and i think becuase of that she's still here. But there is only so much i can do.

[byee]

Talking like a psychologist and talking to a psychologist are very different things! You and your mom need some professional help, it's too much of a responsibility for you to take that on.

There's free help available at Community Mental Health Centers, look in the phone book, make some phone calls and get some outside help!

[James.]

Hey,

Your not alone :mad: . My mum has tried suicide many times and its usally on a holiday. Last year on mothers day she tried cutting her wrists. (Our family has grown up now and we accept one day we will get the final call to say its over.... but seen as we are all older theres one more in the family. My 5 year old sister which we dont want any of this to get to her, We dont want her to go through what we went through).

Shes been doing it ever since i was around 8 and i am now 16. Still have them memories...

When i was around 8/9 she tryed hanging herself, she tryed overdose causing her to fit which i was next to her when she was fitting (Only found out few weeks ago she fitted because she wanted out. Once again it was on mothers day...).

And about 2 years ago she did overdosing again.

Ive lost count and i dont remember anymore but i know theres more. I mean i never new about the overdosing that happened 2 years ago until a few months ago. Theres many more but they are kept from me.

:(

Also when she did the overdose and had the fit. She actually died 3 times (Her heart stopped working on 3 different times in hospital) But still that was about 8 years ago and shes still trying it...

[Hyper]

Well what can I say I think you need to be there for your mother love her but also do what would be best for her.

We might not be right in what is best for someone else but then again people don't always know themselves whats best for them.

Do what you believe would be best for your mother and be there for her like you have been so far.

Much hugs :hug: :hug:

[thesphinx]

I'm so sorry I can only imagine what this would be like.
You need a REAL Psychologist like IAMSAM said there are free clinics that you can go to if you can't afford to pay.
Also their are Anti-Depressants to help with these types of problems and can greatly decrease suicidal behavior.
Best of luck!

[iJack]

I know what your feeling, as i went through the same thing. Now my mother is dead.

Just remember this: No matter what, you are and will remain for ever the thing she loves most in the world. You can do something, give her a hug, it may seem small, but it will help. Show here you care, show her others care. And while doing that, do not mention what she wants to do, and does. Make her feel loved, cared for, and most of all, show her the how important she is to you. Get family, freinds, anyone to help you.