Trapped in an unhealthy friendship

[Lennonism]

I am sick of this. I am friends with these 3 girls (Who shall remain anonymous), and ever since the first day I met them, I've been on a hellish emotional rollercoaster.

I have had good days ruined by them not talking to me, and bad days saved by them simply saying "Hi" or "Good-bye". They constantly insult me. I used to be pretty self-confident, the type of guy that didn't care what other people thought, but them constantly belittling things like my musical tastes and my sexuality (I'm not gay, but they keep saying I am) has made me extremely sensitive to even jokes.

I just feel like they're better than me. I can insult them back, but I'm always going to feel like a loser because they're more attractive than me, they all have good romantic relationships (Their boyfriends are better people than me, too), and I just feel extremely inadequate. I keep thinking it's going to get better, so I keep hanging out with them, but every time I talk to them, I feel worse than before. I'm walking on air when something good happens with them, but if they call me gay or something, I literally almost burst into tears.

It's like they've taken over my life. They're nearly the only thing I think about. I feel like I'm enslaved to them. I'm constantly imaging hanging out with them or thinking about our last encounter. I don't know why I've grown dependent on them. There's nothing about them that sets them apart from other people. I'm just obsessed with them. We barely even share anything in common, but I'm afraid that if I stop our friendship, I won't find anyone else. I've heard about people stopping friendships like these and finding new, better people that they had things in common with, but I just don't know. I might not find anyone.

I hate how I only come here when I need help, but does anyone have any advice?

[raiders rule]

Well, i kinda can relate, kinda. I had 1 girl that was like that to me, insluted me, mean to me, whatever, but our stories are differnt because she got to know me and was nice to me and were friends, but anyways, i do have some advice for you, why you still with them? They make you feel horrible and bad about yourself i would be thinking of ways to stay away from them instead of hanging out with them, im sure you have more than them, and even if you dont, just try and meet new people, it will be fun:D

[Junky]

Good friends should last forever, these gals do not sound like friends of yours, nor is it good to beat yourself up. Finding friends is hard, but its better than feeling like your worthless once you find friends. Getting involved is great for for making friends.

[byee]

I don't know why you like these girls, why they have such a hold over you, they don't sound very nice to you, frankly.

I think you might need their validation too much, you're dependent on something you get from them in order to feel good about yourself. That's never such a good thing, how you feel about yourself should come from some internal, consistent sense of who you know you are.

Why you've gotten so involved with people that insult and degrade you and treat you poorly is something to figure out, but recognizing it as not such a good thing is a good first step. Now, you might need to emotionally seperate from them, and protect yourself from fiuther insult.

Needing people is a good thing, just find people who are good to need. Until then, it might be better to be alone.