Me, The one person I get scared of.

[Xistrance]

removed by myself.

[raiders rule]

You, know, personally, that was a very touching story, you told it perfectly. I think it is FUCKED up that they wont let you see each other because you to obviously love each other dearly, i wish i could connect with someone that deeply:(. Anyways, i hope everything turns out great for you and your girlfriend, good luck:)

[Nihilus]

I'm sorry that you feel depressed. I do not what to say but do not cut, take drugs or alcohol to relieve your depression and stress because that will hurt you rally bad in the future. I saw from your second post that you take cannabis, well try going to a drug rehab center and get the help you may want or need.

[Xistrance]

aye. im alot smarter now. i know i have a bad combination of querks.

im an overly-optourmistic, lazy, narcisstic, fantasistically hopeful, depressed guy who cuts and smokes weed to suppress his feelings which his mind cannot handle because it all boils down to the fact that suicide is the easy way out and that if i do that i wont be able to face my family and her in the afterlife if there is one, hopefully not for if I do die young, then I can hide like a cowardice. typing all this I know my problems but I just cant get the help, i dunno where to go. rehab, pshyc ward or what.

[Zan0ra]

wow, I read that story word for word. Very touching. like raiders it is fucked up that you cant even see her, bonus! she's your step sister. *right?* That's just stupid. You have to try and tell your mom. If possible convince her that nothing was going on. You have been cutting for years and now is the time to stop! take around an elastic band and fling yourself with it whenever you get mad/sad.

This is possibly a classic love story. And everyone has a happy ending. You know her number right? try calling her when your out of the house. Or text her. Ending your life isn't really the way to go. And the shock that your brothers faced when your parents split up must have been big.

I really hope everything works out for you.

[Xistrance]

wish the world was that simple but just blurting my story has made me strong enough to deal with these, i know i have the scars to remind me, but when im cure those wont be scars of pain but scars to mark my accomplishment of overcoming my mental and physical issues. I just wish I was more wisher to other peoples feelings during my SI days.

we broke up about 2 pushing 3 years, my relationships with other women have been purely sexual tendencies and no pushin for a loving relationship maybe my mind is thinking too much and not thinking that i havent found the right woman and im just over seeing primal sexual tendencies. I know now that we wont ever get together again but it would be nice just to see her again see how shes doing with her college, her new BF, im over her now but it too a very long time a good part of 2 years. Ofc i still love her but not intimatly no more. I cant break the fact i fell in love with her at first sight and she did me, and it seems this has become a huge mess when it could have been wonderful, but im human and im allowed make mistakes in my life, i just hope i dont keep lieing away thinking about my broken self, how I wasnt born working, I need to be fixed and I can enjoy life, for after death be it nothing, reincarnation or afterlife. I can look back before I die and smile.

[Hyper]

You seem to know everything thats wrong with everybody else and most importantly yourself

The only thing usually stopping people from gaining happyness is themselves, as cruel as that may sound.

Its often the people who have the indsight and intelligence to understand more than others that get depressed, but its also those people who can truly enjoy life.

From your post it all seems to be up to yourself.

[raiders rule]

This IS a classical love story, it seems like a windy and bumpy road now but in the end things will smooth out, I think its extremely FUCKED UP that they dont let you see her, could you try and meet up with her, if you can, GO FOR IT, this story is SO touching it would make MY DAY to hear that you 2 got back together, I would BE SO HAPPY, sorry for sounding like a fruit, but anyways, stay away from the drugs and stuff man, that only makes things worse, try and find something to do instead of cutting yourself, GOOD LUCK;)

[Torn]

Seeing your posts, things can't have gone totally wrong. You seem like a smart guy..

I hope you straighten things up & find yourself.