a little help please?

[Elokyn]

Well I do stocking at my work so of course they give us a box cutter. Well I just turned the razor blade around in mine cause it was dull and I didnt realize how dull it was before cause it was just slicing through stuff after I turned it around and right after I opened a box, for no reason at all, I sliced my forearm twice and then I sliced my hand twice like between my thumb and index finger...and I was like..why..did I do that? and then I went and covered it up cause it was bleeding like crazy and then once I got off work I went into the bathroom and I was in there and had to take my box cutter out of my pocket and I was lookin at it and I just started slicing my leg...there's like 9 or 10 cuts all in the same spot and it was just bleeding like nuts (not good to happen when you have on khaki pants) and then I sliced my leg again like a little above my knee. Then afterwards I was just like..shit why did I do that? and I had two of the big band aids on my hand cus the others in the first aid kit at work were too small so I took those off my hand and put them on my leg so that it wouldnt bleed through on my pants and just left my hand uncovered cus by then it wasn't bleeding anymore....anyway...I just keep wondering why the hell I did that..I mean it doesnt make sense..I just spaced out and I was like..man I wonder what it would feel like to slice my skin open...like for a few seconds I just wanted to watch myself bleed and then when I was finished I couldn't believe I did that cause I'm not the type of person to do something like that...I'm not unhappy at all....it just kind of scared me and I was wondering if anyone else had ever done anything like that....?

[Waiting]

its common amongst cutters
at work once, i took a knife down into the cellar and went at myself...its simply the body craving it...the realise
i dont knwo what to say really
i can refer you to all our cutting threads
or tell you to seek help
or anythign really
but the fact of the matter is
its up to you to not let it happen again
self control.
sorry i cant hep much#
but for your sake
try not to slip

[moon_dance666]

i cut myself just today and i said to myself "what the hell are you doin?" and then i was like "so precious" weird...

[///James///]

the last time i cut (5 months 3 days) straight after it i sed, what good did that do, put me in more pain and annyence then before.

[Sapphire]

It is quite common amongst us cutters. I remember regularly cutting myself and wondering why i did it afterwards.
Best advice i can give is just try and work thru wotever is making u cut. doing this should then take u to a place where u dont need to cut anymore. Or u can do wot i did and stop cutting (go cold turkey) and then work thru everything. Thinking about it that is probs better option.
pm me if u wanna chat hun :hug:

[Kiros]

Dang, I never really had that happen to me, at least with cutting.

But Nykole, if that happens again, try to stop as soon as you realize what you're doing. Be strong and resist the urge - I know you can. :)

[Elokyn]

Well after I got home and after I posted this I cut my hand one more time and then my arm....then my boyfriend called that night and I told him about it...he was like "baby no that makes me worried please please promise you won't do that again"...so I can assure you all it won't happen again..I dunno what I was thinking....crazy moment for me I guess.