i just want to tell you

[strongheart]

i used to come here and write a lot
i was a cutter and would read the cutting log a lot just to see other places or techniques for cutting, sick i know
i am suffering from major depression and anxiety and every day is a struggle to get through
i tried to kill my self,
and was picked up at a park and brought to the emergency room,
as a suicidal patient,
and then sent to an inpatient psychiatric hospital for a week, i should have been there longer,
while i was there my parents searched my room and read every journal and diary i owned,
when i got back i had no more will to live, in fact, probably less,


but.......


as time has gone on,
i have learned to just deal,
and even when it doesn't get better,
or when i have to explain to my boyfriend and friends about my medication,
living is better than dying,
i don't believe that yet myself,
but if you keep saying it,
eventually it will be true,


please, i know what it's like to be in the darkest place of your life, hating yourself, and how close and easy death is,

but please try,
just to hold on for one more minute,
and then another,
and another....


because, it may not get better, but life is all we have


thanks for all the support in the past VT
i'm not out of the dark yet,
won't be for a long time,
but you have helped me in so many ways,
the most noticeable is that i haven't cut for 3 months.

take care of yourselves VT

[byee]

Good for you, it is so nice to hear that you're still strong and still working so well at keeping well! Keep up the good work, and let us know how it goes.

[Mr. Smithers]

It helps to let it all out sometimes. This may help you and I am glad that you are taking the initiative. Remember to always look back at your writings, it helps.