Depressed

[paintballer42]

i really always tried to keep this inside so no one would make judgments or whatever but. I think im depressed. Im almost always unhappy inside but on the outside i am either putting on a happy face or showing no expression at all. I think most of these feelings come from my parents. They are constantly fighting about bills,money,food ect. I know im not to blame but it hurts when they say if we never had kids we wouldn't be in this situation. Im sure they dont mean it they are just angry at the time. But think about hearing it from my point of view. I almost know for a fact that im depressed. Ive tried suicide my never really could go through with it(which i really don't regret now as i look back on how stupid that concept is). But now i just cut myself and hope for things to get better. I have also started thinking about doing drugs i mean its all around school and all my friends seem to do it. The drugs just seem to make the pain go away and make you feel happy.

Anyway i dont know if im looking for advice or if i just needed to vent but thanks for reading.(if you read the whole thing)

[Zephyr]

Try confiding in your friends,
It may feel awkward,
But beleive it or not they'll more than likely want to be there for you,
Especially if you would do the same for them.
I'm glad that you decided that killing yourself is stupid,
I've been there myself,
And stupid is exactly what it is.
I have no fool-proof solution for quitting cutting...
Nobody does.
But try to keep yourself occupied with other activities,
But please so not turn to drugs.
Drugs will just make your situation harder,
Especially if your parents find out.
I would try taking up a new hobby or something,
It'll help take most everything off of your mind.

[raiders rule]

Yeah, i cant relate with you but i think it would be best if you told someone you really trust, and dont turn to drugs, they will only make your situation worse. Heres an old saying i have to tell ya(and NO im not copying the dark night, i just really like the saying and its helpful here) Things get the darkest before dawn.

[Mr. Smithers]

Its ok to let your feelings out. It sounds like you are keeping all your feelings in and you are only going to get even more depressed.

Try writing, or doing something that you like. I have had major depression for 2 years so I know exactly what you mean.