Lennonism
July 8th, 2008, 09:11 PM
I don't think this is the right forum for this sort of thing. Just move it if it isn't.
Now, I was homeschooled for many years of my life. Recently, about a few months ago, I decided I wanted to go to public school. I'm not sure if it was a mistake or not. I made a few friends, but the majority of the school thought I was either gay or weird. Even my first fucking GF broke up with me because she thought I was gay. Most of the memories I have of my short time in the 8th grade are painful, and the good ones are ruined because the people I shared them with went on to stab me in the back.
I was the only kid at my school who listened to the Beatles. Everyone else listened to emo stuff and country, so I was made fun of a lot, and people went around saying I jacked off to their music. Just thinking about it makes me want to punch a hole in my wall. What the hell do they know?
Well, I'll be going into high school, and I'm really scared. Mostly because of having to rid the bus. I have a lot of bad memories on there. Since I was the new kid, everyone on the bus pushed me around. People would get mad at me for sitting in their seat, and I'd get embarrassed. I tried to kiss my GF on there and she rejected it. That's pretty much the last place on earth I'd want to be in. But the worst part about it is this little kid.
I'm not sure what grade he is in. He's pretty young, maybe sixth grade or so, but for some reason, I just can't stand up to him. He gets mad at me for sitting down in a seat. I think he just doesn't want me anywhere near him, because one time I sat down in a seat in front of him and he kept pestering me by saying "It's someone else's seat! Move!" until I just decided to leave. Plus, he humiliated me in front of my ex. His seat was next to hers, and I wanted to sit down in it so I could be near her, but he said no. I feel pathetic for not being able to take care of a kid who is younger than me, but something just doesn't click when things like that happen. When I'm at home, I'll think "If anyone ever tries to push me around, I'm going to say no" but when it actually happens, it's like someone else just takes over. I just do what they say automatically. Besides, everyone at school is stronger than me. I'm not fat, but I have no muscle.
Long story short, I don't want to go to high school. The few friends I've made won't even be there. They're all one or two grades below me. Most of all, I'm afraid high school just won't work out. I'm afraid I won't find anyone with the same interests as me. I like video games and the Beatles, and that's about it, but most people I've met only play games I don't like and have never heard of the Beatles. I'm just afraid. I'd rather be homeschooled than this.
So can somebody give me some advice?
Now, I was homeschooled for many years of my life. Recently, about a few months ago, I decided I wanted to go to public school. I'm not sure if it was a mistake or not. I made a few friends, but the majority of the school thought I was either gay or weird. Even my first fucking GF broke up with me because she thought I was gay. Most of the memories I have of my short time in the 8th grade are painful, and the good ones are ruined because the people I shared them with went on to stab me in the back.
I was the only kid at my school who listened to the Beatles. Everyone else listened to emo stuff and country, so I was made fun of a lot, and people went around saying I jacked off to their music. Just thinking about it makes me want to punch a hole in my wall. What the hell do they know?
Well, I'll be going into high school, and I'm really scared. Mostly because of having to rid the bus. I have a lot of bad memories on there. Since I was the new kid, everyone on the bus pushed me around. People would get mad at me for sitting in their seat, and I'd get embarrassed. I tried to kiss my GF on there and she rejected it. That's pretty much the last place on earth I'd want to be in. But the worst part about it is this little kid.
I'm not sure what grade he is in. He's pretty young, maybe sixth grade or so, but for some reason, I just can't stand up to him. He gets mad at me for sitting down in a seat. I think he just doesn't want me anywhere near him, because one time I sat down in a seat in front of him and he kept pestering me by saying "It's someone else's seat! Move!" until I just decided to leave. Plus, he humiliated me in front of my ex. His seat was next to hers, and I wanted to sit down in it so I could be near her, but he said no. I feel pathetic for not being able to take care of a kid who is younger than me, but something just doesn't click when things like that happen. When I'm at home, I'll think "If anyone ever tries to push me around, I'm going to say no" but when it actually happens, it's like someone else just takes over. I just do what they say automatically. Besides, everyone at school is stronger than me. I'm not fat, but I have no muscle.
Long story short, I don't want to go to high school. The few friends I've made won't even be there. They're all one or two grades below me. Most of all, I'm afraid high school just won't work out. I'm afraid I won't find anyone with the same interests as me. I like video games and the Beatles, and that's about it, but most people I've met only play games I don't like and have never heard of the Beatles. I'm just afraid. I'd rather be homeschooled than this.
So can somebody give me some advice?