is it weird

[krystalm]

I honestly don't want to have intercourse. I'm okay with only oral and I love oral. I don't see myself ever loosing my virginity. It just horrifies me, and guys have tried but they get nervous(I do things to get them nervous) and back out, so I always knew I wouldn't go through with it, I just let them think it's there fault. But I hate the thought of anything going into me! Dildos creep me out, i've never let anyone finger me, or fingered myself, and I've only used tampons a few times.( I rarely get my period anymore, thanks to birthcontrol!) Ugh, i just can't imagine it.

Am I the only one, or is this normal?

[byee]

Well, what you're feeling is perhaps the result of what happened to you during childhood. It's (thankfully!) over, but the memories and feelings remain. So, those 'things' get in the way when sexual things come up now.

Stay with therapy, keep working on this, and with time (and patience) you'll be able to put all of 'that' into persepective so it doesn't interfere.

The interference just indicates that 'it's' still there for you, and it needs some time and work in therapy.

[krystalm]

Yeah,. I've thought about it like that, but my abuse was being molested not raped(no intercourse) and i'm okay with oral and touching, just sex really doesn't do anything to me, and it's even with tampons, it just horrify s me.

i never ever connected it with my sisters, and she was raped, but it wasn't me, how could my body link it like that?

[byee]

What you witnessed and what you experienced was a horrible violation, it was a sexual violation. Your reaction to that stuff now is perhaps a reaction to that, what you witnessed and what you remember.

Talk with your therapist about it.

[krystalm]

but i have absolutely no problem with guys feeling me up, and, well those type of things, or giving guys hj, bj, or whatever.liek i'm totally cool. it's just when it comes to sex, i just have no actual interest in it. everyone always says that it has to do with the abuse, but i really don't think it is. i mean... i don't even.. like ...i just have no interest in it.

[byee]

It's yet to be uncovered in therapy, so you don't 'realize'. Give it time.

[sabotaged111]

Perhaps, you should try sex and it might feel good? Just a guess but in time im sure those feeling will go away

[DarkWingedAngel]

i say do what feels right if u r not ok with sex then don't have sex because it is ur body and got the rights and fredom to say no but im prety sure sometime those feelings will go away but reight now just stick with what u r confertable doin

[iceyfresh]

a lot of girls are bothered by that your normal