i am just checking.

[kiss.]

okay.
i dont think i have a problem, but i am just checking just to be sure.
okaaaayyyy!!
well i hate my body, my life and who i am.
some days i dont even want to get out of bed and face the world. but insted i have to get up and the world see the hidious beast that i am :(
i hate food soo much.
i hate that eating one little thing can change your body.
i am constantly thinking about my body and how ugle it is (48kilos. 163cm)
some days i dont eat much because i am very scared of what it will do, i try to starve myself, other days i give up and just eat (usually crap)
i hate it, i really do I WOULD RATHER DIE THEN BE FAT!!!

i have tried sooooo many times to mkae myself throw up but right where i am about to (i sometimes get a bit to come up) i stop because i hate the taste of vomit. but i wish i could do it and i wont stop until i do throw up TRUST ME!

i hate who everything. ESPICALLY FOOD!

but there is nothing to worry about is there, i dont have a problem.

[Rutherford The Brave]

Seems like you kind of do have a problem. Still you need to moniter what you eat, you actually lose more weight eating healtheir foods than starving yourself. Your not a hidous beast, trust me you and a whole bunch of teens feel the smae way. Yet you all are very beautiful in your own special ways.

[MrPinnick17]

You say you don't think you have a problem then in the end you say you don't have a problem at all--

You do have a problem.

First thing eating one thing does not change your body, after you eat your stomach automatically looks a little bloated, it's filled with food that needs to be digested.
Second you say you starve your self and then when you finally give in you eat junk, well why eat junk if your so worried about your weight? Eat some salads, sandwiches, there are a lot of tasty alternatives to chips and such if you just put forth the effort to making them.
As for throwing up it makes your teeth rot, I would opt out, you should probably enroll in some programs if your having issues like this. You can get the help you need and feel great about yourself like you know you deserve too.

http://www.something-fishy.org/ Read up all about it.

You should really look into your local community, there is a way out you can have the body you desire, feel great about yourself, and look great while maintaining your health.

[byee]

Well, you're asking if you have a 'problem', and the answer based on what you've said here is "Yes". If it's anorexia, is another story. But, feeling as poorly as you do about yourself and your behavioral reaction to it (not being able to get out of bed), is most def a problem.

I'd recommend you tell your folks about this ASAP and get to a doctor who can assess all of this and determine exactly what kinds of problems they are. And begin to fix them.

[kiss.]

okay.
well if i do have a problem what is it?

[byee]

Only you know the answer to that. However, feeling unhappy, not being able to get out of bed, not liking yourself to the point of revulsion, are all indicators that something is really wrong.

You'd do well to try to figure it out, what it is that's bothering you, and then try to correct it.

[kiss.]

but i dont know.
i just hate my body i hate who i am.
i hate food. i have a fear of food. everywhere you go, it's there.
and i dont want to get out of bed because of everything that i face food.
i want to go into a world where there is no food, so that i will be skinny and then have a good life.

[byee]

If you cannot figure it out, and if it's getting in the way (which it seems to), you should tell your folks and let them get you to a doctor. Together, you both can figure it out.

It's not typical that people 'Hate'. That's a very strong word to describe very strong feelings. Those usually come from somewhere, and unless you figure out what they are and deal with them, you're more likely to develop all these other symptoms.

Tell your folks.

[kiss.]

i am not going to tell my parents.
i dont want to tell any one.
because they will think i am just being stupid, to be thinking like this

[byee]

OK, well,then you can try to figure this out on your own, why you feel so strongly about this stuff. Also, remember not to respond to these feelings by staying in bed, or not eating, or feeling gross about yourself.

If you can't, and it get's in your way, the next step would be to come up with a way to explain to someone what's going on inside for you and the seriosuness of it, so they can help get you to someone who can sort it out with you.