I think I need some serious help

[Rutherford The Brave]

As you all know I love Noor, very much, at this time she's basically my number 1 priority. Well, lately shes been rather morose lately. I come home every night at 12 ish and shes still up crying. So I usaully stay awake and hold her till she stops crying and falls asleep. Then the next day she ends up being so very happy and all is well in her world. Well, the same cannot be said for me. Seeing as it usaully takes me around 2-3 hours to finally get her to go to be Im up at like 3 a.m scrambling to still do my homework (its hard to seeing as Im number 1 in my class). By the time thats done its 5 a.m and I have maybe 1 and 1/2 hours to sleep. Often I only get 1/2 hours of sleep because I stay up looking (while crying) at pictures of my mother, (who died when I was 2). My health has plumeted I'm way underweight, I havent shaved in 3 months (full beard) I need surgery, I have anxiety issues, and the worst of it is Im not happy. I'm just out of things to do, Im afraid that Noor, may have pre-pardum depression, but i've been paying too much attention to her, to care about myself. I'm afraid that if I take time for myself she might fall in a hole and shes already close to that point. Imagine what its like as freshman walking down the halls, with a child, while a crowd of predominantly white racist juniors make fun of your baby because its half Morracan and Half Cherokee. It just tears my insides apart.

[byee]

I think you're right about needing some help. Is there a student health center or counselling center? Check it out, get the support you need for not only your mental health, but what also sounds like both of your physical health, too.

There's only so much you can do here, and you won;t be ble to do it if you're not eating or sleeping, you need to be at 110%. Do what you need to, recognize that you need to be strong for all 3 of you, and sometimes that means making different decisions than you now are (like sleeping more and eating more).

Also, she needs to see a doc, please tell me she's got good prenatal care. Have her see her OB/GYN, go with her and let him/her determine what's wrong and how it should be treated.

I think you're under a lot of stress here, and maybe you're thinking of your mom, missing your mom, because maybe you think/hope/wish she could be here to take care of you (and Noor), that's what you miss. However, if you an take better care of yourself, then you might find the strength to take care of Noor and your unborn, and deal with the loss of your mom with a different perspective.

[LifeIsMyJoke]

As you all know I love Noor, very much, at this time she's basically my number 1 priority. Well, lately shes been rather morose lately. I come home every night at 12 ish and shes still up crying. So I usaully stay awake and hold her till she stops crying and falls asleep. Then the next day she ends up being so very happy and all is well in her world. Well, the same cannot be said for me. Seeing as it usaully takes me around 2-3 hours to finally get her to go to be Im up at like 3 a.m scrambling to still do my homework (its hard to seeing as Im number 1 in my class). By the time thats done its 5 a.m and I have maybe 1 and 1/2 hours to sleep. Often I only get 1/2 hours of sleep because I stay up looking (while crying) at pictures of my mother, (who died when I was 2). My health has plumeted I'm way underweight, I havent shaved in 3 months (full beard) I need surgery, I have anxiety issues, and the worst of it is Im not happy. I'm just out of things to do, Im afraid that Noor, may have pre-pardum depression, but i've been paying too much attention to her, to care about myself. I'm afraid that if I take time for myself she might fall in a hole and shes already close to that point. Imagine what its like as freshman walking down the halls, with a child, while a crowd of predominantly white racist juniors make fun of your baby because its half Morracan and Half Cherokee. It just tears my insides apart.

Why do you say you need surgery?

And yeah I think some help is needed, I'm not sure as to your age, but I would speak to Noor about your declining health. My mother died when I was 1 and a half, but there really isn't any reason to feel any blame for this. These things happen, sad as they are. You should try and do your best not to let it affect your life any more than it already has.

I know that that is easier said than done, and you feel like you have been robbed of a childhood by not having a mother, which is why I think you should see a specialist, a counsellor, a psychiatrist even, to discuss these matters, and to get their views on the matters.

[Rutherford The Brave]

I think you're right about needing some help. Is there a student health center or counselling center? Check it out, get the support you need for not only your mental health, but what also sounds like both of your physical health, too.

There's only so much you can do here, and you won;t be ble to do it if you're not eating or sleeping, you need to be at 110%. Do what you need to, recognize that you need to be strong for all 3 of you, and sometimes that means making different decisions than you now are (like sleeping more and eating more).

Also, she needs to see a doc, please tell me she's got good prenatal care. Have her see her OB/GYN, go with her and let him/her determine what's wrong and how it should be treated.

I think you're under a lot of stress here, and maybe you're thinking of your mom, missing your mom, because maybe you think/hope/wish she could be here to take care of you (and Noor), that's what you miss. However, if you an take better care of yourself, then you might find the strength to take care of Noor and your unborn, and deal with the loss of your mom with a different perspective.

Yes she is seeing a OB/GYN, and Im having rotator cuff surgery.

[theOperaGhost]

You do need to get some help. The stress is really taking a toll on you. You need to find a way to get more sleep, whether it be taking naps, or just trying to go to sleep earlier, which doesn't sound very easy in your situation. I think you should go to a counselor or something. It's good that you care so much about Noor, but you also need to remember to care about yourself. Don't be selfish, but still care about yourself.

[Hyper]

You seem like a really strong person, but everyone has their limits. I can't add anything else but stay strong, I think you know whats on the table.. And yes find a way to get more sleep I've lived in a sleepless rhythym for years it is not good for you..

[Rutherford The Brave]

I've been suspended around 3 times since Noor got pregnant, Mainly because juniors like to run their mouths and use racist comments. Now, I have to admit Im a bit hot headed and when I see her crying and a junior all happy go lucky, Im going to punch them.

[theOperaGhost]

Now to be honest, I hate it when people make racist comments. I'm not saying that I don't like people who are racist, but come on, keep you fucking comments to your damn self. I'm sorry people have to be such assholes. But I do like hot headed people, so you are awesome. I'm a little hot headed too.