bad feeling

[irhmrh]

Ok so i feel bad as hell

the way i feel before i cut is i feel alone, empty, scared, angry, lonely, and just pain.

everytime i cut i hope it will be deep and will kill me. it does not

the last time i cut was today..14 times, i for the first time wote. and now that im kinda feeling better im scared about everything..
help

i just need someone to talk to

i feel it getting worse and worse


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writing

Enter life as a crying weak person
Being forced to grow up
Crying is a thing of the past
Crying is a thing done behind closed doors

Sadness comes and goes
Your shell must be happy, as your inside is sad
Cant show fear
Cant show tears

Life comes to an end
Cold sharp steal sliceing warm pink skin
Life slowly comes to an end

Puddle grows and grows
The light starts to fade
Small smirk on my face
Life is done
Happy and free
Life is done



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Sweat dripping down my chest
Cold chills running up my spine
Pain in my soul

Sharp, pain in leg
Blood runs like a race
Drop, drop, drop on the floor

Colder and colder I become
Hands shaking as I cry
Tears mixing with blood
As it wins the race

A hug is all I need
To heal my pain
A hug is all I need

As the world slows down
Berthing slows as well
Eyes start to swell
Head starts down for its last bow
The show is done

[Malcolm Tucker]

Listen, you may think it's hard to quit, but it is and you have to get through it. I believe that everyone has the power to quit, people just don't know where that power is. Find it soon, before it's too late. Cutting won't help. It only makes the pain worse in the long term. If you are having suicidal thoughts, you need to go to a therapist (If you don't already have one) or a doctor immediately. I'm here if you need someone to talk to. :hug:

[Crystal-Clear]

*Hug*
I'm sorry to hear things are a bit muddled with you at the moment.
Why do you feel so bad? Perhaps if you look to the reasons of WHY you do things and what triggers them, then you can start to realise the pattern, and consequently break it. If you want to quit.
If you need anyone to talk to, just pm me and I can give you my hotmail, or talk to you through the forums.

All the best hun, I hope things get better.

I'm in total agreeance with Mick, go and talk to someone, a profesional or a close family member or friend.

[jma94]

Everyone has bad days, but no one should have suicidal thoughts. I'm going to have to agree with the previous posts. It's definatly a hard thing to do, but it must be done in these sorts of situations. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm almost always around. :o