AutumnDae
June 1st, 2008, 11:46 AM
My best friend, Logan, a boy and I have known each other since we were around 2 or so. He lives across the street from a kid that is 3 years older, and his name is Justin. When I was like around 6 or 7, I remember Justin always coming over while I was at Logan's house. We had made up a joke one time, and after that for a year or so, Justin was known as "Butler" Over the years, Justin and I didn't really talk. But 2 years ago a little bit, and last year a lot, and this year a lot, we talk all the time. We text a little bit, and talk on AIM all the time. We never talk in school, because we never see each other. We are just always going the opposite ways, or our paths never cross. But a couple of months ago we had been talking on AIM, and joking around, and we had some how come to the joke that we had sex every night. No, we don't really, but it was funny. Now when either of us are bored one of us says "Should I stop over, and help you out?" or something. And now is where it gets kind of confusing. Last year I liked a kid named Christian, who is a year younger than Justin. Christian has a twin sister named Cassondra. Justin now sort of likes Cassondra, but they aren't allowed to date. (I personally think the whole thing is ridiculous, but that's besides the point) Anyways, Justin went to prom with Cassondra. And probably two weeks ago Justin and I got onto the subject of who he wants to have sex with before he graduates. He seriously has a list. He won't tell me who is on it because "that will ruin the secret." I don't really care. I've never really thought about whether I like Justin as more than a friend, but lately I have been. The other day he said "Our joke should really happen, before I graduate, okay?" I kinda like him I guess, but I don't want to date him if that makes any sense. Yesterday I was on a school trip for band, and on the way home I got a text from him. It was just something like
"Hey, what's up?"
I said "Nothing much, bored. what are you doing tonight? we should hook up."
"Damn girl you serious?"
"I'm up for it if you are. It's a rainy night, it will give us something to do."
"Where are you now?"
"I'm on a bus on my way home"
"Are you coming into town when you get here? Where are you going"
"I don't really know, I'm on my way to the high school now, but we can do something if you want."
"Well if you want you can come over here. My mom is home, but we can go up in the woods or something"
"That sounds good. I'll call you in a few"
I didn't end up going over there because my Dad wanted me to help him make a cool looking cake. But we were talking last night and stuff and he's like giving me all the compliments "You looked really pretty on Friday in your skirt" and just stuff like that. I think I might like him. I'm not going to date him, too much of an age difference, and he likes Cassondra. I wouldn't want to do that to Cassondra, because I think she likes him too. But I kind of really do want to "hook up" with him. I'm not planning on having sex with him, I'm not ready for that, and I don't want to lose my virginity to him. I just kinda want to see what "hooking up" I guess with him is like. He's really nice. He would stop if I said so, he's not an asshole or anything.
I don't really know what kind of advice I'm looking for.
Any suggestions?
"Hey, what's up?"
I said "Nothing much, bored. what are you doing tonight? we should hook up."
"Damn girl you serious?"
"I'm up for it if you are. It's a rainy night, it will give us something to do."
"Where are you now?"
"I'm on a bus on my way home"
"Are you coming into town when you get here? Where are you going"
"I don't really know, I'm on my way to the high school now, but we can do something if you want."
"Well if you want you can come over here. My mom is home, but we can go up in the woods or something"
"That sounds good. I'll call you in a few"
I didn't end up going over there because my Dad wanted me to help him make a cool looking cake. But we were talking last night and stuff and he's like giving me all the compliments "You looked really pretty on Friday in your skirt" and just stuff like that. I think I might like him. I'm not going to date him, too much of an age difference, and he likes Cassondra. I wouldn't want to do that to Cassondra, because I think she likes him too. But I kind of really do want to "hook up" with him. I'm not planning on having sex with him, I'm not ready for that, and I don't want to lose my virginity to him. I just kinda want to see what "hooking up" I guess with him is like. He's really nice. He would stop if I said so, he's not an asshole or anything.
I don't really know what kind of advice I'm looking for.
Any suggestions?