Suicide + Therapy.

[Malcolm Tucker]

I am so fucked up as of late. I am cutting, although I haven't in a week. I admittedly cannot concentrate anymore. I lost the ability to a while ago. This is critical as I have serious state exams next week. I cannot have fun anymore. I can't. I don't take pleasure in anything. And all of this, I am not going to a shrink, a doctor, or anything for that matter. VT is my only output. And even this doesn't help me. Worse still, I cannot sleep. And I pass the time by Googleing Suicide, suicide notes, suicide methods over and over and over on my phone. Last night I put a belt around my neck, and wedged the end between my wardrobe doors and slammed it. To no avail, as I'm here now. I even, while supposed to be studying, wrote a practice suicide note. I have tears in my eyes when I eventually go to sleep. Anyway, you're probably bored with all my ranting about my problems and such, I know I do it way too much. My question is if I decide to get help, how do I tell my mum + dad. I need to know from past experiences. Please. I really need this.

[thesphinx]

When I told my parents how much pain and agony I was in (and how I wanted to kill myself) they were shocked because I always would hide how I felt.
They were happy I told them and I was happy because we started to get help for me and I am much better now.
You just have to remember that shock, distress, anger etc are all a natural response for the parents if you tell them, they are mad or disappointed in you they are just upset they their "baby" is feeling so bad and that they can't just take all the pain away from you.
Some things you CANT do on your own please tell them.