BeautifulSilence
May 28th, 2008, 10:01 PM
This thread is mainly just me finally admitting that I may have an eat disorder (or two?)
Around about this time last year, I stopped eating and took dieting pills and vast amounts of excercise. This went on for about a week (I was a normal weight, didn't really lose any either). Nobody noticed until I fainted during a P.E lesson. For a few months my closest friends had to make me eat whilst I was at school. When I got back into eating normally, the "phase" slowly faded from everyone's memory.
About two and a half weeks ago, I decided that I'd gained too much weight (even though I'm still a normal weight) and slipped back into those habits. I reduced the amount I eat because I got some hunger suppressant patches (after a few days, I could last a whole day with just a piece of fruit or two). I started taking two different types of dieting pills (at double the recommended dose). I've been excercising 2 hours a day and use electro pads for about a total of 3 hours a day... I know this sounds really bad, but I've become addicted to being in control of what I eat and I love losing the weight so quickly (I'm about 9 lbs lighter). It's so easy, I don't wanna stop.
That lasted for about two weeks, because I was at school and now I'm on half-term things have turned to shit! I can't stop eating, I'm not even hungry, it's all from boredom! All the money that I saved from not buying food has been spent on food over the last 4 days. I decided to save the patches for when I go back to school, otherwise it's just wasting them. I have NO self control when I have so much free time. There's nothing that I can do because I'm a loner kid and have no one to do anything with. I'm so disappointed - I've gained like 5 lbs and I'm fat again. I'm now addicted to eating! I'm even eating a chocolate-chip Poptart as I'm writing this and I hate chocolate!
I feel soooo much better now that I've let that out, even though I got a bit carried away on the latter bit... I think that I just needed to admit to it because I've been neglecting it after I was laughed at for suggesting that I might have an ED to a friend.
Feel free to comment or whatever - I'm not actually too bothered :)
Around about this time last year, I stopped eating and took dieting pills and vast amounts of excercise. This went on for about a week (I was a normal weight, didn't really lose any either). Nobody noticed until I fainted during a P.E lesson. For a few months my closest friends had to make me eat whilst I was at school. When I got back into eating normally, the "phase" slowly faded from everyone's memory.
About two and a half weeks ago, I decided that I'd gained too much weight (even though I'm still a normal weight) and slipped back into those habits. I reduced the amount I eat because I got some hunger suppressant patches (after a few days, I could last a whole day with just a piece of fruit or two). I started taking two different types of dieting pills (at double the recommended dose). I've been excercising 2 hours a day and use electro pads for about a total of 3 hours a day... I know this sounds really bad, but I've become addicted to being in control of what I eat and I love losing the weight so quickly (I'm about 9 lbs lighter). It's so easy, I don't wanna stop.
That lasted for about two weeks, because I was at school and now I'm on half-term things have turned to shit! I can't stop eating, I'm not even hungry, it's all from boredom! All the money that I saved from not buying food has been spent on food over the last 4 days. I decided to save the patches for when I go back to school, otherwise it's just wasting them. I have NO self control when I have so much free time. There's nothing that I can do because I'm a loner kid and have no one to do anything with. I'm so disappointed - I've gained like 5 lbs and I'm fat again. I'm now addicted to eating! I'm even eating a chocolate-chip Poptart as I'm writing this and I hate chocolate!
I feel soooo much better now that I've let that out, even though I got a bit carried away on the latter bit... I think that I just needed to admit to it because I've been neglecting it after I was laughed at for suggesting that I might have an ED to a friend.
Feel free to comment or whatever - I'm not actually too bothered :)