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[ctw4451]

I'm kind of depressed. Not a lot, and I wouldn't ever cut myself.

I just kind of have the feeling to always "perfect" everything. I don't know why. I don't care what people think about me, really, but I just ask for respect. I kind of want to be at the top, but yet I don't know. I'm the most down to earth, open person probably in my grade. I'm kind of pessimistic, and I don't know what to do to get to the point where I don't have to think that I have to be so "perfect." =\

[Rutherford The Brave]

You have to be modest, really you can't really be the number one person you just have to be your best. And your best will be respected by everyone.

[mr.sexy_bomb]

oh really i am not down 2 earth cant help u sorry

[byee]

Thomas! You're going to give me a bad name if you keep having probs, you know.

Can you be a bit more specific with what you mean by your need to be 'perfect'? What's that about for you?

While I'm waiting for the answer, i think, based on our previous convos, that you might just think too much. I think you're a very conscientious guy, and maybe you examine things in yourself too much, that you're a bit of a worrier? Wanting to be your best is always a good thing, but most people have this sense of when they've hit their sweet spot, when they're at their personal best. With you, Ithink it's this elusive target, so you tend to worry too much, eventhough you might be doing just fine.

Sam

[ctw4451]

Hahah Sam, you're great man. Yeah, I am a worrier, and I criticize myself..a lot.

I haven't met my personal best, so I'm working on that. I felt happier today, and I'm kind of doing better. =)

[Kiros]

That's good. But just keep something in mind. We all have flaws. I, for one, have made many mistakes and I'm nowhere near perfect or even decent. But whatever you are given, you have to either accept it or reject it. Whatever people think of you will not change in a minute, or an hour, or a day. Just do what you can to satisfy yourself, relax, and choose what to do based on what you think - not what others think.

But that's just for when you feel a bit down like that ;)

[byee]

Hahah Sam, you're great man. Yeah, I am a worrier, and I criticize myself..a lot.

I haven't met my personal best, so I'm working on that. I felt happier today, and I'm kind of doing better. =)


And you are an exceptionally perceptive young man, Thomas. No sarcasm there, either.

That's how I know you'll be OK, you have an inner directedness and awareness that you might not be fully aware of, but serves you well nonetheless.

And your 'Personal best' is some thing that is constantly evolvng. And from the view here (and based on our convos), I have to say that you're pretty far along that road, too. Even if it sometimes doesn't feel that way.