I Think About It A Lot

[Uhh.Huhh RAN_DOM]

Well I do think about cutting more than i should i really never did think about it until all the things thats going on now i might even be depressed like everyone says i am but i think i actually might want to cut to get the feeling of what its really like i mean i know its bad but.....theres no one i really want to turn to except myself.i always lie to everybody that asks if iam okay about whats going on but i just say yeah iam fine.

[Rutherford The Brave]

Please take a look at my list of things to do other than cutting (if you haven't already) I know Im having a tough time right now as well.

[Atonement]

Hello. My name is Addison.

I am sorry that you are going through this. Though I am no doctor, it is very common for people that cut to be depressed. No one deserves to feel the way you do. It is good that you want to turn to yourself because that means that you really want to change this. Though, sometimes, yourself can't always be enough. So, if you ever want to, you can always turn to this forum, or heck, you can just pm me if you want.

[byee]

Remember that there's a difference between urges and actions. "Feeling" like you might want to cut is very different than actually cutting. As long as you're on the other side of that divide, you're OK. Just be careful not to cross over.

People usually cut because they're really unhappy and they feel they have no other way of letting those feelings out, of expressing themselves. The point of self expression (with words) is to communicate your pain and (hopefully) get the support you need to get better. Cutting doesn't really accomplish this, it only hurts, it's messy, and you're left with scars. Getting the feelings out is only half of it, it's the support that';s also important, and cutting cannot accomplish this.

If you cannot currently talk instead of cut, it's important to develop ways of expressing with words whatever it is that's causing such distress for you. Saying that you 'lie' about your feelings isn't a good start here, you might want to rethink this and begin to answer that particular question more openly than you are now, at elast with some trusted friends/adults. If you cannot, then it's a signal that you might need to talk with a doc.

[irhmrh]

Listen don't cut, ive cut (and still do) and its not fun, there are many other things you can do. and if you realy want to feel pain, but not get the scars. Get a rubber band put it on your wrist and when you wana cut pull it back and let it go. same kind of pain but no harm done

[jma94]

Like previously said, you're on the other side right now. STAY THERE. Dun cross over to the cutting side. I can tell you first hand, it is DEFINATLY not worth it. It's a quick fix. It gives off some endorphin [sp?] that makes you feel better. And you're left with inexplicable scars. You don't want to have to explain them to friends/family, belive me. You can get the same feeling as cutting, without the pain and scars, by eating a bit of chocolate and exercising. It's addicting too. Just like any other addiction, once you're hooked, you can't stop without a lot of effort. Read one of the announcement type thing at the top of this forum, before the stickies. There are a lot of good things there.

So please, don't start cutting. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel. Even if it takes a while to get there. I'm always around if you ever wanna talk. I'm a pretty good listener. :3

[Acronychal]

You should really seek out more help. What you've described is how I started a couple years ago. Thoughts can change into actions very easily. It only takes something very small to trigger the action once you've thought about it so much. Try to do something to distract yourself from the thoughts. Write, or draw, anything to keep yourself distracted and not thinking. And talk to a best friend, or someone you can trust. I know that telling people is scary, especially if you think they're going to tell an adult, but it is for the better, believe me. If you don't, there is a very good chance that it can become more than just thinking about it.