no control...

[ShatteredWings]

i can't take this anymore.

i dont know whats wrong anymore


they expect me to be perfect...my mom expects me to finish the work that even my teachers don't expect to be finished (tech. extra-credit -- but i still can't get my grade above a 99 nomatter wht i do)

why can't i keep in control?

the noise, i cant take it. little brothers scream and cry all day while i'm trying to finish up my math and english [cyberschool]

its getting harder and harder to control how angry i am...i don't want to hurt anyone -- or anything (like animals..i'd HATE myself more if i started hurting animals again) -- cause of me

they treat me like i'm just some sort of failure to them...i can't do anything right apparently (what the fuck? seriously)

i've been bordering trying to end it again...i almost did about a month ago but it didn't kill me(just very sick-to-stomach) and nobody even noticed :(


GOOD parents don't let their kids live like this! i'm horriable at hiding it, and she's seen the marks on me..for a week i wouldn't wear short sleves because it looked so bad (its going away now tho :) )

i'd talk to my friend, but she's haveing a bit of a crisis herself (dad heart translplant), and this would hurt her more

sorry for the rant, but can anyone give anything constructive?

[myskias]

well it seems like you are a very good student whose parents expect too much of you, i think you will be okay, if u have a 99 in a class and ur parents are getting mad because its not a 100 thats kinda weird...

it seems like you were just posting to let some stress out? its okay to do that it helps alot. If u need to talk to someone about anything PM me and il give u my AIM if u want :]

[ShatteredWings]

i don't know what to do anymore