I'm just awful

[Sugaree]

I feel awful tonight. I'm sitting here.....alone.

I feel depressed about how my dog died and my weight. I'm fat. I'm almost 250 or so. I lost count a year ago. My body keeps saying for me to eat even when I'm not hungry. I always feel that when I go out to public that people think "Holy crap he's a fatass" or "Who wants to friends with him."

That's why I stay in the house away from them. Sure I go outside and play with friends. Even though not many people are there I still feel as though all attention is diverted towards me and they all think the same thing that I'm a fatass.

I feel awful about this. I've tried losing weight and diets but those didn't work. I started out by starving myself and thinking that I'd lose pounds. I just gained more. I don't know what to do. I have to take Zoloft which is an anti-depressant since December of 2007. It worked the first few weeks, but since then it's gone downhill.

I don't know what to do. I have no where to go. I'm sure that all people ridicule me except for my family. I'm just so depressed that I don't know how to describe it.

[Rutherford The Brave]

Look you just have to keep looking towards the future you can't give up. Also you can't starve yourself, if you want to lose weight you need to start going to the gym with friends and try as hard as you can because if you give up it will never work, I support you just don't commit suicide or Ill be very upset.

[Sugaree]

I've never comtemplated suicide. I'm not that depressed to even think about doing it.

[Zephyr]

Hun, I've been overweight most of my life,
I know where you're coming from.
The thing is,
Don't give a shit about what others have to say and just be yoruself,
They can't ask for more than that.
If they do, they're not worth your time or your grief.
It's mainly a mindset.
Most people could care less about your weight, think about it.
When you see a bigger person, do you think, 'fatass', and not give it a second thought?
I know I don't, I treat them all the same, as do most people.
Forget about what others think.
Once you do that, you'll see that you're equal to everybody else,
And almost everybody else think so too.
Forget about that small minority of assholes,
Think about your happiness instead.
Once I learned to not care about what others thought,
I noticed that almost nobody judged me on my wieght,
They actually like me for me, not my body image.

Yes, it'll be healthy to lose wieght,
But it's something that has to happen at the right time when you have the right attitude,
So until then, forget about what others think and try to stay strong = )

[Sugaree]

Oh my God...........you have just made my day Steph! I would love to thank you for your kind words!

[Zephyr]

It's what I was put on this earth for hun,
Anytime = )

[Medical Kid]

honestly dragons, i am not one to say this, im sorry, i was born really skinny, but
there are still ways to to make it work man, like after you do a huge workout, it turns out the calcium from chocolate milk builds lean muscle really well! and the proteins from steak help your blood and muscle, see? you can still eat good and be healthy.

[Hyper]

You've got friends, and if they really are your friends well then thats alot.

If you really want to loose weight then do it right, don't just starve yourself and do it yourself go see ( Forgets the English word.... ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ) nutrisionist? Or something, I hope you understand me..

But yes Steph but the other, most important part nicely.