what is wrong with me?

[tay_tay]

i dont know what is going on in my mind.
for a while now all i think about is food and what it will do to my body.
i am 15 and weigh 46 kilos and am 163cm tall. and the only things that are on my mind is how fat i am and food.
i used to love food but now i hate it but still love it at the same time.
i really want to lose weight. i see myself as being so fat. i am repulsive. i am always looking at other people wishing to be like them. i constantly pinch the fat on my arms legs stomach everywhere. i have no confidence in me at all.
i kinda starve myself. i dont eat at at school and i eat dinner and sometimes on the weekend. and everytime i do eat i get so depressed and mad and i feel so unbearably gross. i have tried to make mysefl vomit. but it doesnt work.

then somedays i get so down that i just eat.

i dont like to eat infront of my friends because they probably think she is so fat shes sucha pig. look at her eating.

help me.
why am i like this.

[sabin22]

so ur sayin u only weigh 101lbs (46 kilo) & u wanna lose weight

[tay_tay]

yes i want to lose weight.
i want to get down to like 33kilos.
because then i may be skinnny.

[Whisper]

46 kilograms = 101.4 pounds
163 centimeters = 5.4 feet

From what I can tell your BMI is 17.3


Underweight = <18.5
Normal weight = 18.5-24.9
Overweight = 25-29.9
Obesity = BMI of 30 or greater

http://www.nhlbisupport.com/bmi/

Which means your UNDERWEIGHT hun your not fat
If your worried about your health then you should eat a balanced diet avoid the crap like potato chips, pop, etc...
Have lots of fruit and greens, whole grains, protein (fish, meat, eggs, etc..), dairy (I LOVE yogurt)
drink water
and stay active, walks, jogging, swimming, sports, biking, etc....

You'll feel so much better
more energy
and you won't feel like crap all the time

Starving yourself is a horrible thing to do hun its so hard on your body and you will gain weight because your body panics and stores what it can when it gets food

They say its best to have 6 small/medium meals a day rather than 3 huge ones



You are NOT fat if anything your on the verge of anorexia which is very dangerous
I'm sure you're beautiful don't diet

[Rutherford The Brave]

Yeah I wouldn't exactly be concerned about losing weight because you are underweight more or less you should be concerned about raising you BMI just a bit. I wish I could do that I haven't gained any weight and Im stuck at 112 pounds.

[tay_tay]

i wish i couldn'e be able to put weight on.
i wish i could.
i really want to loose weight.

i wont be happy until i do.

[VCSCjosie]

ok first off your not fat at all. bu ti think that if you would like to lose weight you can do so by excercising and eating healthy and other things but trust me don't stop eating because that honestly will make you skinny but make you gain weight right after so i just suggest that you excercise frequentyl and eat healthy and youll be just fine!
trust me i have had ean eating disorder for many years an dit's not worth putting your body through all that when you truely are fine.
stay true and just eat little not too much and youll be great.
you very beautiful even though i havent exactly met you but my your weight you must be!
-josie (atleats try and take my word for it.)

[tay_tay]

i just want to leave my mind.
just stop thinking about being fat and food for like one minute but i cant.

it is constantly on my mind.
i dont think i ahve been happy because its all i think of for about 2 months now. (well it has been this strong for 2 months.)
i dont even like seeing people any more.

i just want to escape my mind and my body.
nothing distracts me. i get sooo upset all the time.

i just want to be a skinnnnny happpy girl.
insted i am a fat ugly unhappy girl.
163cm 47k.

i hate my life.

[Atonement]

Hun, I understand your problem for, I myself have/am going through it. I must say, one of the best things you can do is let people know. I told my best friend and he helped to keep my responsible and watched out for me to keep me healthy. And as for not being able to stop thought like that, I suggest some kind of distraction. Like a friend maybe, they can hang out and talk to you. Or just call someone and talk as much as you can to try to get your mind off of it.

Really, all I have to say is that your friends are your biggest weapon. And by posting here, you already made a great big step towards help.

[tay_tay]

i try to distract myslef.
everytime i hate what i am thinking or i think about trying to throw up. i paint my nais.
do you know how many times i painted my nails yesterday.
27 times.

thats ridiclous.