iam gonna do it.. i think

[Kietkarbad]

kill myself i have had it fucking tied of these thoughts(gay) in my head.. how can i be bi or gay if i dont have an attraction to the same sex? i mean yeah i have said guys are mad hot but tahts it.. i dont see how thats gay/bi.. but whatev.. iam nothing against gay/bi but i cant live that life.. it just doesnt work for me iam sry.. iam tired of it all... i want a gf but i cant have one.. these thoughts are corrupting my daily life i cant do anything have fun anymore... Y AM I HAVING THESE THOUGHTS i mean if i was gay would i known when i was like 10-14... iam 16 now and all my life i loved girls no attraction to guys... but oen of my closes friends is iam gay/bi but can admit it to myself.. i sad here thinking if my brains say iam gay then iam gay.. but i jsut dont like guys... i d k whats wrong with me..IAM ON THE VERG OF KILLING MY SELF

[theOperaGhost]

Calm down man. Think through this. If you have no attraction to guys, then you are not gay. Don't do anything stupid, because it doesn't sound like you are gay. It's just hormonal. I don't know how you feel about guys, but I'm straight, but I find some guys attractive. There is nothing wrong with that.

[Kietkarbad]

idk what it is wrong with me.. it jsut randomly out of the blues happen... ergahhhhhhhhhhhhh and ia msry with the sping i jsut cant think straight rite now...

[theOperaGhost]

Ok just think rationally and don't try anything stupid. I know that feeling of not thinking straight out of rage (not about sexuality, but something else), and you say and do things you can regret. Just don't hurt yourself.

[Kietkarbad]

i am seconds i mean seconds from doing it i have madd pills on me so iam soo ready iam rather really set... but sumthing stopping me i d k what.. ergahhhhhhh

[theOperaGhost]

Get rid of the pills now. Don't do it. Nothing is worth ending your life over. You'll figure things out soon about your sexuality. Get the pills as far away from you as possible.

[Kietkarbad]

i seriously dont know what i want in life anymore.. i just dont get it... how do i randomly one day get hi then fall asleep wake up and have gay thoughts and the added stress anger and depression i jsut dont get it... but i took like 4 tylenol and 2 advil that wont do nutin to me but it will sumwhat hurt in a way i think who knows who cares i certainly dont that y iam doing it

[theOperaGhost]

don't take anymore. Overdosing does not fix anything, because killing yourself doesn't fix anything. It'll fix it for you, but it will only hurt other people. Suicide is NOT the answer.

[Kietkarbad]

iam not hurting anyone iam jsut doing what will ease my body soul and mostly my fucking MIND but i have always thought of going out with a bang.. as in a nice skewl shooting ... not to kill anyone but jsut do sum damage then end it

[theOperaGhost]

don't terrorize other people. You really should not even think about doing that. First of all you can get arrested for making that post. Just by stating that, you are giving probably cause that you will do that. Don't do anything stupid. Calm down and think rationally.

[Kietkarbad]

i said it was a thought.. but i dont think i want to hurt other people.. i wouldnt know where to get a gun anyways.. and besides iam not a murdera jsut a thought... but i look people dont deserve to die.. they die of a reason not known ... but no one deserves to get killed.... i d k y i even posted that >.> but otherwise my mind rite now is at ease these thoughts are sooooo weird they come and go... for almost a month now

[Kietkarbad]

man i jsut wanna break down and cry but i rlly dont know what to say..

[myskias]

DUDE UR NOT GAY!! IF U HAVE NO ATTRACTION TO THEM THEN THAT MEANS UR NOT GAY!! your mind is tricking you and is confusing you. you are definately not gay from what i just heard. you are a normal person who is just a little troubled. PLEASE I HOPE IM NOT TOO LATE!! dont do it man!

[myskias]

if u feel like breaking down and crying then go ahead! it is perfectly normal to cry!

[Kietkarbad]

i cutted myself and salted them... wow this feel exhilarating wonder what dying feels like 0.0 i d k iam wait it out and see what happens i jsut find it odd how my life was the straightest it could be then i get this to happen to me

[Kietkarbad]

i mean iam sry for all the post but seriously.. all year i have been stressing over everything... from aids...my diease...cancer... stds.... and now this... it like all wants to atttack my or sumthing i really dont know what i want >.>

[myskias]

try thinking of the things you love. think of everyting that makes u happy. dont focus on the bad, ignore the bad it shouldnt matter. try to stay happy and if crying is making you feel better then go ahead do it.

[theOperaGhost]

Cry. It's healthy to do. You've got a bad life the way it sounds. But ending it still wouldn't fix anything. That's just taking the easy way out. Fight this thing in your mind and overcome this unhappiness.

[Kietkarbad]

ergg i want to ... it just these thoughts come and go... and they are random.. i jsut keep thinknig what happens if i turn gay... i kno there nutin wrong but i jsut cant live that life and will not live it....

[myskias]

dude, theres a 0% chance that you will turn gay because of the way u are acting righ tnow and what u have said in all of your other posts. i sware dude these thoughts are ur mind testing you to see how strong you are. fight through this and you will seriously have won the biggest victory of your life.

[theOperaGhost]

Fight it. You will not turn gay. You want help, because you asked for it, but all we can to is type. Your the one that needs to fight this shit and beat it. think positivly and rationally and don't kill yourself.

[Zephyr]

Hun, please just take a deep breath, step outside of yourself for a minute and think about what you're saying. Those random thoughts are just that, random thoughts. We all have them, but you need to let those thoughts go. Just let them go adn don't stress over them. Have a good cry, it'll let you take all of your pent up emotions out in a healthy way that will make you feel better once you're finished, and nobody has to know about it. You don't have to kill yourself, let alone hurt yourself, there are always options such as therapy or working through your problems on your own, or even allowing us to help you. Just keep all of this in mind, please.

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

Buddy, you can't "turn" gay. I encourage you to read some of the threads in the Teen Sexuality section, it should help to assure you that everyone has the occasional homosexual thought (or even more than just occasional), but not everyone is gay or even bi. Especially during the teen years, these thoughts just happen. The very fact that you can't even imagine yourself living your life as a gay man makes it even more likely that you're straight. Give it time, and the thoughts are likely going to subside.

So take a breath, and relax. You'll feel better tomorrow, I think, you're just having a moment right now. Everyone has times where suddenly everything seems impossible, but if you just breathe, and remind yourself that you'll get through it, it all tends to work out.

[theOperaGhost]

Exactly they are random. It's just a temptation. I don't know if you're religious, but I am and I say it's the devil tempting you and testing you. Fight it. The random thoughts will go away. They might come back, they might not, but all they are are thoughts.

[Kietkarbad]

thank you all it means alot thanks alot..

[theOperaGhost]

No problem. Just keep calm man, and fight the bad thoughts and you'll make it though this shit.

[Zephyr]

Anytime dear = )

[Spawn De Balls]

dont do it dood. b happy.

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[KidImage]

yeah dont do anything stupid lifes all fun and cool to look at dont kill yourself how old re you? Becuse if you like bettween like 13- 18 everyone has thoughts like these during puberty i had/have them and i assure myself im not gay and dude niether are you. Just think of all the people that love you.

[KidImage]

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[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

Indeed it is. In the future please use the report button instead of posting that the thread needs to be locked--it will bring it to a moderators attention sooner.
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