Adam88
April 29th, 2008, 04:56 PM
Hey everyone its Adam. I just wanted to say that for a long time I have had extreme anger in me, and this is serious. I am 19 now, and I have this thing where the most smallest thing will set me of, and I become enraged. Do any of you think something happened as a child, that made me like this, or perhaps I am just a jerk?
Lets go into more details, today at work I yelled at an elderly woman (which I am not proud of, and ashamed of). I work at my farthers restaurant, and by accident I gave her the wrong change. I gave her $4.90 back instead of $5:90. She gets nasty and says, "you don't know what your doing", so I told her to relax. She tells me to relax, and thats when I blew up and became a nut case. I Said "Don't fuckin tell me to fuckin relax, don't ever fuckin talk to me like that again!"
There was even a time a threatened to kill an employee(which I know I would never do) You see, all my childhood people, bullied me, and until this day people step on me. I tell you all more details later, but as of now, I just can't take it. I feel that all my life, being a smart person in school, and always doing the right thing never paid off. Between the people in society, and my family members (besides my mother), I feel that everyone takes there problems out on me, and I have this thing where, if someone annoyed me 10 years ago, or bullied me, I still harp on it, and anger builds up. I plane on seeing a therapists, but wanted to tell people his before I harm myself or others. Thank you.
-Adam
Lets go into more details, today at work I yelled at an elderly woman (which I am not proud of, and ashamed of). I work at my farthers restaurant, and by accident I gave her the wrong change. I gave her $4.90 back instead of $5:90. She gets nasty and says, "you don't know what your doing", so I told her to relax. She tells me to relax, and thats when I blew up and became a nut case. I Said "Don't fuckin tell me to fuckin relax, don't ever fuckin talk to me like that again!"
There was even a time a threatened to kill an employee(which I know I would never do) You see, all my childhood people, bullied me, and until this day people step on me. I tell you all more details later, but as of now, I just can't take it. I feel that all my life, being a smart person in school, and always doing the right thing never paid off. Between the people in society, and my family members (besides my mother), I feel that everyone takes there problems out on me, and I have this thing where, if someone annoyed me 10 years ago, or bullied me, I still harp on it, and anger builds up. I plane on seeing a therapists, but wanted to tell people his before I harm myself or others. Thank you.
-Adam