Can't step out

[Mannequin]

I'm stuck in my flesh and im making no progression.
i just feel like a void mannequin....im just a mannequin.
im put up for show. i want to have the strength to be myself, yet im so consumed by my past mistakes. being myself would mean losing everything ive ever worked for. every friendship ive created...everything.
im selfish for putting my sexuality in front of my parents happiness and welfare..
but how long can i hold my composure? fake a smile? live within these shallow borders? im so angry and stressed. when i come out, what will i have? is it my own personal lust for sex thats seriously going to make me happy? am i actually that shallow...to betray and hurt everyone in my life? uhhhhh

[Zephyr]

Hun, if you just act like yourself then things will find a way of working out and you'll be happier in the long run. You're only human, we all make mistakes but that does'n't mean that we have to dwell on them, just learn from them ane move along = )