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Elokyn
September 14th, 2005, 09:23 AM
Well...you'll only understand part of this if you know the whole story (in previous rants in this forum)
buuut I went to Josephs house Sunday cus deanna invited me over so I figured everything was fine..she ended up treating me like shit and joseph got sick of it so he said he was gonna try to leave earlier. So he called his mom and his mom said she could get him this week...well the plan was he was gonna tell them tuesday (yesterday) and maybe come over here and just stay until his mom got here (sunday at around 2am)...well I talk to him and tell him I love him and I get a call from deanna a few hours later....

YOU AND JOSEPH BEEN PLOTTING FOR HIM TO MOVE OUT?!?!
I haven't been plotting anything, but I have been listening to Joseph tell me how he feels.
I NEVER THOUGHT YOU WERE LIKE THIS NYKOLE!
I WANT YOU TO KNOW WE'RE HAVING HIM ARRESTED FOR ATTACKING HIS FATHER SO HOW DO YOU LIKE THAT! NOW YOU CAN GO RUN AND TELL HIS MOMMY CUS IM SURE YOUVE BEEN TALKING TO HER TOO!
yeah I have...
YEAH I THOUGHT SO! YOU WILL NEVER SEE OR SPEAK TO JOSEPH AGAIN!
Okay so you're mad because I didn't tell you about this? This buisness that wasn't mine to tell you?!?
and she went on a rant and I hung up on her....

Well of course when I got off the phone I was shaking like crazy..like I could hardly hold my phone but I needed to call his mom asap and of course I was sobbing...came out of my room and told my mom what happened and she was pissed...she called their house..

Don't you EVER call and harrass and try to intimidate my MINOR daughter again or I will have you THROWN IN JAIL SO FAST YOU WONT FUCKING KNOW WHAT HIT YOU!
(I found out later she raised her voice cus deanna was trying to speak over her)
deanna- HOW DARE YOU CALL MY HOUSE DONT YOU THREATEN ME ILL STOMP YOUR ASS!!
Bring your ass on you know where I am!
OH NO YOU WHORE BITCH YOU COME TO ME!
FINE I'LL BE OUTSIDE BASE IN 15 MINUTES YOU BE WAITING!
*click*

meantime I called josephs moms cell but just got the voicemail and I left a message telling her what happened

and of course I'm hysterical...so I called matt...my youth leader..the greatest guy you could ever hope to meet. I was in tears

Matt?
yeah whats wrong?!
I need you *sobbing..can barely talk*
What happened?
Joseph just tried to tell his parents that he was leavin...(mom walks in...shes about to leave to go over there)
Don't you take that shit from her if she calls you again you tell her to stop harrasing you and that your mother will have her arrested you are a minor that is ILLEGAL
matt on the phone- kiddo! kiddo! can you hear me! Nykole?!
yeah
matt- I'm on my way
*click*

I ask my mom what she's gonna do...shes like I'm not gonna do anything I don't expect her to even be there.
So Matt gets here and we sit outside in my driveway talking...he gets here and hugs me and I'm just sobbing like a blithering idiot..
I told him the whole story and he was like..well..you know I have connections and I have a pass..we'll find out where he is..everything is gonna be okay. At 17 he can be emancipated but we just have to do it right......
He proceeds to tell me how Deanna was supposed to be like..sort of a minister to the young children in awanas in church and he just had her kicked off that and has to be the one to tell her..she can't work with those children..she just can't...
We talk and I get a call while he's there from mom saying that she called deanna when she got outside the base but deanna didn't pick up the phone so yeah she didn't show up. then while I was talkin to her josephs mom was beeping in so I was like I gotta go *click* and ..

Hello?
Hi
Hi, I saw this number on my cell and I was just returning the call
yeah, did you get my message?
uuuh..no I just saw the number I havent checked messages yet (then I realized he didn't know who I was lol we had never talked)
oh well this is Nykole, Josephs girlfriend
oh hi Nykole!
hi...uhm..I just wanted to call and let ya'll know that Joseph tried to tell his dad and deanna that he was leaving and in deannas words he "Attacked" his father so they are having him arrested
WHAT?! how can they do that?! he just wants to leave!!
I know..I don't understand it!
Well thank you for calling I will tell susan when I get home
okay thanks
alright bye
bye

Then I talked to matt and he was like making calls but noone was answer so on leaving he said he was gonna call the second he knew something....so we hug and my mom gets back and everything and I come inside and call my friend Julia who I had just told about it..right before deanna had called me...and I wanted to let her know what was happening and she was pissed too.
Well Matt calls and says he talked to deanna...she got pissed off once and hung up but called him right back..that she changed her story about 3 different times while they were talking and that Joseph was just in a police car outside their house and that he was "unrealistically calm" ...I was like what the fuck?! is he supposed to huff and puff so she can make the story out better!? what does she expect!
And so yeah we get off the phone and my stomache is just in knots (it still is) Then matt calls me a bit later and tells me that he talked more to deanna and that Joseph was gonna be going back home tonight and she said it would be okay (which I dont believe for a second) and MArshall (josephs step brother) answered the phone and he said he got marshall to tell him that he'd go off somewhere alone when he could and tell him what really happened. Well he also got deanna to say it was okay if he called and talked to him today ...sometime around 4 is when he's calling..I wanna go over to their house in a few hours..partially cus I just need to be away from this stuffy little place cus all i can do is hurt..and the other part just really wants to be there when he talks to Joseph...I know he'll probably be in a another room and I might not get to talk to him but...I dunno....I guess theres a part of me that just hopes to overhear his voice on the phone so I'll know he's okay...*sobs*

I had work this morning and couldnt get my mind off of it..while stocking an isle I broke out sobbing...I know...crying helps nothing...but goddammit theres nothing else I can do *sob*
Luckily we got out early..only 4 hours today...

If you managed to read all of this I beg that you please please pray or hope for me and Joseph..pray that they haven't convinced him to stay..pray that his mom is still coming to get him saturday and that she will still be here sunday at 2am .....just pray that he's holding on and staying stong...for us...even though I know he is....I pray that there's some way that I hear from him....*sobs more*

Rowan1011
September 14th, 2005, 01:24 PM
Wow, that sucks.. I feel sorry for Joseph, couldn't he have just gone to the feds and they'd do all that legal mumbo jumbo so Joe(Joe was meant to be short for Joseph... I forgot his dad was named Joe.. So yeah, excuse that) could go with his mom instead?

teencrazykid
September 14th, 2005, 10:40 PM
Hey Nykole, any new developments?

Whisper
September 14th, 2005, 11:06 PM
I dont know how the law works where u are but here u have to have solid evidence that someone assaulted u befor u can have them arrested.


I'm not religous at all so i'm not gonna pray

but I do hope that everything goes okay. :cloud9:

...... :drunk:

Elokyn
September 15th, 2005, 07:42 PM
Well Joe let Joseph call me today..he told me that the only thing he could talk about was what they wanted him to talk about which I'm not gonna go in to cus I can't talk about it now.
But he just kept whispering I love you and we're okay and just kept reassuring me and saying I love you so so much and I can't stop thinking about you I will wait forever for you so that made me feel sooo much better.
I don't know when I will talk to him again...I asked him....cus I talked to his mom last night and she said that he told her he wasnt coming and to not bother coming saturday
Well I asked him and he said he had to do that cus if she came she could be arrested for like up to 2 years or something cus if the parent without custody does anything to persuade the child to come to them while the other parent has custody thats against the law (well she didn't do that this time but she's done it before so the judge isn't likely to believe her.,..plus lawyers can twist shit) so he was just protecting her by telling her not to come but I can't tell her that cus he asked me not to talk to her anymore (and I think he did that because ..well I was talkin to her the other day and then come to find out stuff I had said about deanna or just like commented on that deanna had said about her she told joe ..shes like well deanna doesnt need to be saying I brainwash him and joe is like..who told you that? and shes like..well I can't say...well of course the only people there are to say that is me and joseph sooo they know it was me..and all I did really was..she was saying deanna brainwashed her kids and I was like..well deanna said the same about you or something..just convorsation I didn't think anything of it..point being though she will relay stuff back to joe and it will get back to them and they'll know and so yeah..he just doesnt want me talking to her anymore which I don't blame him if she can't keep her mouth shut) anyway so at the begining of the convo he was whispering real soft and hes like..dont tell anyone not even mom and he stopped..and I was like..uhm..what? and he goes I can't I can't say I can't say and I was like ..uhm okay...and then later I was like well what happens what you're 18 and he goes..plans are still proceeding..do not tell ANYONE (of course he was whispering this) and at the end of the convo he was like..*sad*...I have to go cus there's nothing else they wanna know..but...I love you baby...I said I love you too sweetie *sad* he's like....I love you so soo much and I said I love you with all my heart baby, you know that and I will wait forever for you you're on my mind constantly. and he's like..well you're all I ever think about baby and I will wait for you forever too I love you soo much..I love you too baby...bye my love...bye honey...

ooh...(I would go back in and put this in but I just remembered lol) he kept stressing that he wanted everything worked out and I was like..can I ask why? and he said..because they took my phone and its like they ripped a peice of my heart out...not being able to talk to you every day just kills me....I almost cried..noone is ever that sweet to me...bah..I love him sooo much

I started a journal thing today..just counting down days till his birthday...recording my feelings so I can look back when/if things get better and say..wow it could be like that.....so yeah...I'm writing it to him..makes me feel closer for some reason

Rowan1011
September 15th, 2005, 08:52 PM
:( Hope it works out.

Elokyn
September 17th, 2005, 01:11 PM
JOSEPH GOT HIS PHONE BACK!! *does a patented happy dance*

kolte
September 17th, 2005, 01:34 PM
*hugs* it will all turn out good in the end

TheWizard
September 17th, 2005, 04:07 PM
I'm confused (yes I read the whole thing) but I hope things work out.

blue_berry_icecream
September 18th, 2005, 02:21 PM
awwww that must suck but hang in there

teencrazykid
September 18th, 2005, 11:54 PM
Hey Nykole, who r u inviting 2 the wedding (I know there'll be 1!) I can hear the music...duh duh duh duh....duh duh duh DUH.....duh duh duh duh duh, duh..duh duh DUH!

bbychop
September 19th, 2005, 05:59 AM
:hug: i'm glad things are getting better for you dear. :)

Elokyn
September 19th, 2005, 05:14 PM
hehe trust me, the guest list will not include deanna.
Wanna know something hilarious?
I called Joseph earlier
he was like Deanna just called me (he was still at school (parking lot)) she wants us home asap cus she fell down the stairs


yeah..my heart is as cold as stone towards her but damn...what goes around comes around.
Apparently she's int eh hospital now cus she cant hear out of one ear and shes dizzy...BOO FUCKIN HOO!

*prances along my merry way*

bbychop
September 19th, 2005, 05:37 PM
LoL! I honestly don't blame you for not giving a damn.

Anonymous
September 19th, 2005, 08:39 PM
Nykole, Deanna is jealous of you. beat the hell outta her. You and joseph will live happily ever after. that hoe, will get AIDS!

Elokyn
September 20th, 2005, 02:40 PM
hehe :hug: s Austin