Am I depressed?

[Tree]

I don't believe I'm depressed. But I feel like there's something wrong with me. I lost my dad last year and me and my mom just can't get along for anything. We're always fighting, and last week she kicked me out and told me to never come back, then she reported me as a run-away?? Then there's financial trouble like there's no tomorrow, and sometimes I feel like I can't live with it all. It'll just be easier to give up life, and I'm not saying I'm going to commit suicide because thats a horrible sin to do but sometimes it does cross my mind...Some one please give me some advice.

[Rutherford The Brave]

Let me tell you I know what its like, my mother died when I was a baby and 2 years ago my drunken father lost custody of me. I used to live with my dad's ex-wife and she would beat me mercesless, so last year I moved into a foster home, where I watch young kids for hours and hours. Now I live with my fiance and well Im 15 this all happened cause I got her pregnant, but all I've done in the past and present to get past these hard times, is to look towards the future! Also I reccomend seeing a therapist even if you don't feel like you need to.

[Tree]

Thats whats been getting me through everything, is looking towards me being able to move out. But I just feel like it seems so far away when really its only less than 2 months, but I'll only be 17 and I know she'll find someway to try to ruin my life.

[Rutherford The Brave]

Listen here, I have to get a grant from the state to buy my apartment, also even though I hated when my father was drunk. I loved him to death you know why? Cause he was a poor full blooded native american, with no wife and a son. He worked 3 jobs then he'd come home drunk and even then I'd wait for him to come home to beat me. Parents aren't out to ruin your life hun, be glad that you actually have a parent.

[Tree]

Alright thanks for your advice. And sorry your father was like that.