it's nearly been...

[star_face]

four months since i last cut, i did it on my own and everything seems to get better just by stopping cutting and looking at things differently, but now i'm slipping back into old habbits i've started the drugs again as a way of escaping it all, but it's just not enough and everything is starting to fall apart again but uggh just feel out of control, i really don't want to cut anymore, but this is testing me so much, so much is going on right now and there's so much pressure!
:(

[myskias]

hey, try not to cut or do drugs theyre the worst thing you can do for your body (well one of the worst), they can ruin your life... try to just be casual with friends, look for the brighter side of everything try not to feel so sad about what ever makes you feel sad. If you want to escape from things theres other ways, like i usually will go down to a private place in the wilderness near my house and maybe listen to some music and play with a stick or something. try to get your mind off of everything that is making you want to cut and do drugs.

[star_face]

my friend wants me to go see a councillor, but i'm really scared, i'm not sure i even want to do it, he said he would come with me the first few times but i don't think i could talk to someone i don't know i alway freeze up when i talk about myself and just can't do it, and i get paranoid when talking to anyone becuase i know there looking and listerning to me and i'm terrified of being judged, being asked all those questions and telling someone about something i should be ashamed of. i mean what sort of things are they going to want to know?
it's so scarey because it's going to be like the first time i admit i have a problem and get help, and what if i do keep cutting i'm just going to feel like i've let my friend and everyone down, and waste someones time.

[NextToNormal]

its a good idea to go to the counselor and its great that your friends said he would go with you. all they are going to want to know is how things are going in your life, what things bother you and stress you out and things like that. they arent going to try to immediately come up with a solution to the problem and they cant come up with a starting point to help you if you dont talk to them and let everything out. it can only help you in the long run.

[Rutherford The Brave]

Yeah often times even talking to a friend could be an option. But cutting just isn't something we should turn too, life is always going to get better and teenage years are hard.

[Hyper]

four months since i last cut, i did it on my own and everything seems to get better just by stopping cutting and looking at things differently, but now i'm slipping back into old habbits i've started the drugs again as a way of escaping it all, but it's just not enough and everything is starting to fall apart again but uggh just feel out of control, i really don't want to cut anymore, but this is testing me so much, so much is going on right now and there's so much pressure!
:(

Don't let him slip away, comes into my mind as a song, yes you can replace he with a she.

There is nothing to think about you know the answer, stay strong or you'll end up dragging yourself down.

Go see the councilor and see how it works out.