My Journal Of Poetry

[Atonement]

As you obviously guess by the title, instead of spamming up the open book every 15 minutes I write a new poem, I will post them here. Often I will just reply to it with a whole poem that I wrote in VT. Most the poems I have posted on VT are not saved on my computer even though they should be. Anyway, well, soon this will start to fill up with poems.

Of course, I would not post these if I didn't want feedback, so I highly encourage you to comment on everything you want. I dont care when it is from, if it is most recent. Just go for it.

Just by the way, my poems are usually written in four line verses with second and fourth line rhyming in the last syllable. They tend to be rather morbid, hateful, and depressing, but I am working on writing more positive material. PM if you have questions.

[Atonement]

Okay, so as a reference guide to any poems you may have missed in the open book forum, I will now post links to all the poems I have posted elsewhere in VT in order from oldest to newest.

Below, I have posted links to the other poems lingering around in the Open Book that are mine. :D


Gone. : http://virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=20823
Hide. : http://virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=20828
Notice. : http://virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=20812
Mask. : http://virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=20902
Reaction. : http://virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=21066 (it sucks)
Wait. : http://virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=22939
Open. : http://virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=22940
Careful. : http://virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=22938
Pride. : http://virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=22943
Burden. : http://virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=27377
Done. : http://virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=27400

[Atonement]

Okay, so here is my first shot at positive poetry. Evferyone always tells me that I have to always have hope that a good day will come, so here comes my positive look on hope. The post after this will be a negative look on hope. hmmm, want to compare?

Hope.


I want to let go,
I want to not cope,
I want to say no,
But I can't lose this hope.

I want to lose hope.
When all things are wrong,
I can't give up,
I am just too strong.

So much has happened,
Everything says to not go on,
But there are those that love me,
Those that think of me as their dawn.

All these people hoping,
Too many people care,
I keep on doubting,
Yet I say this little prayer.

"Even though I may be crazy,
Can I be healed?
I want to be free,
I want the truth to be revealed."

I want more than just faith,
I want to have a solution.
I need to find a way,
I need to have a retribution.

With my future barely uncertain,
I can't give up on something so clear,
I believe I have a life to come,
I just have to lose this fear.

My life is speeding before my eyes,
I dont know if I can cope.
I am so split on this...
I am giving into hope.

Negative coming soon.

[Zephyr]

Comment on Hope

I believe you have found a coping mechanism Addison...
You've been quite the poet tonight!

The last line made me smile = )

[Atonement]

Okay, so, essasteph suggested to me that I do a poem on regret first. So, here I go I guess.

Regret

All lives are full of trials.
All people in life fail.
Some will linger on it,
And not be on the proper trail.

I have done a lot wrongs,
I have always been weak,
As I get past these things,
It becomes harder to speak.

All that I think of is what I did,
You could say I even obsess.
This takes pronound effects,
I change and begin to regress.

My life has changed,
For what I remorse,
I just can't forget it,
I can't release the source.

We all have done wrong,
I have done my fair share,
I just take it too hard,
As if it is rare.

I cannot handle this all,
I go crazy with shame,
I could call it a mistake,
But it is not quite the same.

I am so scared,
I am becoming ill,
I just can't take it,
This will kill.

I try to release my baggage,
I want to get ride of this debt,
If only I could,
Relieve this regret.

[Zephyr]

Comment On Regret

Aw yes, I can really feel the emotional baggage that you speak of by the end = )
It brings up moments in my own life that I regret, which is good. The purpose of poems, at least in my opinion, is to express yourself and try to bring out emtions in the reader.

*applause*

[Atonement]

Thanks steph, I will definately keep writing.

[theOperaGhost]

They both speak with a lot of emotion. Hope kind of takes a point of view from other people around you, while regret more so take your point of view. They are both very good.

[george]

hhhmmm regret brings up a lot of things that I regret doing..... Both of them are really good but I think I lik regret more :)

[SirRawrsalot]

*subscribed to thread*

I loved them both. Why can't I write poetry that rhymes? :( lol I think you could easily be a poet, either as a hobby or a career.

[Atonement]

Right so I had completely forgot about this collection of poetry I have been making.

Well, I am trying to think about a new topic. An emotion, a feeling, a thing in general. I tend to write aobut topics not so much events or places.

Any ideas?

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Seeing as hopefully someone will read this, I expect you to comment even if you have to say I did a shitty job. please comment.

Risk.


Just take a jump,
You need to leap,
If you don't,
you will never reap.

Where is the adventure?
What fun is a plan,
Just go off course,
And look what you began.

Risk is fun,
Risk is life,
Risk is a gamble,
Risk could be strife.

Look at the present,
Then just trust,
Look to the now,
To find what you lust.

Chase for desire,
Though it may be out of reach,
Follow your dreams,
No need for somone to teach.

Love the now,
Make it brisk,
Dothe leap of faith,
Take that risk,

[Zephyr]

You've got a knack for this...
I give you the subject,
You write it good = ]
Like I said in IM,
It puts fun htoughts in my head.

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Resentment.

You have hurt me,
Though I must not resent,
I want to deny it,
But you're still my parent.

Its as if you've forgotten,
Maybe you don't care,
I've given up hope,
Though I have yet to stop my prayer.

You forgot the day,
The day of my birth,
You were there for God's sake,
Is that what I'm worth?

You've neglected my existence,
My brothers are your pride,
You have wronged us all,
I'm taking mom's side.

I can't let you do this,
All these small things,
They huge to me,
And the pain they bring.

You should not affect me so,
If only you would open your eyes,
So you would stop all these LIES!

I can't help but resent,
My lost parent.

[Zephyr]

AWESOME,
Really = ]

[iJack]

Very nice, you really have a gift there that not many people(me) have. Keep writing!

[Random_oso06]

i like Risk and Hope love the poems

[Atonement]

Well I am looking for anothr idea, so if anyone ever has any, feel free to PM them to me or just post here.

[SirRawrsalot]

Wow. I loved those. I haven't let them all soak in to make individual comments, but really...just wonderful.

I have one. How about something about lies or lying. Something like that. Just a thought. Seems dramatic.

[iJack]

Well I am looking for anothr idea, so if anyone ever has any, feel free to PM them to me or just post here.
How about nature?

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iJack, I know you probably meant like, nature as in the trees, the birds and the sky, but nature is the universe and all phemonema. So, here it goes. Screw the trees. Lol.

Nature.

Nature is everything,
It can't be changed,
It even has an order,
That can't be rearranged.

Why should we shift,
When nature makes us what we are,
We should not run off,
And stray too far.

We cannot change the universe,
We cannot change our path,
We should follow your destiny,
So we can avoid nature's wrath.

Nature is the way,
Its natural plan,
It commands our lives,
Yes, Each, And every man.

Its bad and short, I know.

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Okay, this really isn't a present idea, its more of a goal of what I want...

Fresh.

I have decided to change,
I am turning over a new leaf,
I thought I would share,
So I will make this brief.

Stop all the hurt,
The pain and the tears,
Release all the anger,
And wipe away my fears.

I want to stop with the lies,
The games and the tricks,
Just accept one another,
No more punches and kicks.

Give me a glance,
When I need it right now,
Don't push me aside,
To all the terrors you allow.

I want to start new,
I need a restart,
Get all the weight,
Off of my heart.

This bullshit is over,
Its through for this stage,
Those demons will hide,
Until I shall age.

I want to open up my life,
Tear it apart,
Disect each piece,
Down to the start.

This pain must stop,
I am done in this flesh,
I am flipping my life over,
So I can start fresh.

[SirRawrsalot]

NATURE: I think that one was good. I think that's like at the most 2/3 of a good poem. It's just missing a little substance. Some fillers I guess. Other than that I thought it was great.

FRESH: "So I will make this brief." I love lines that address the reader. I really don't think I saw anything that should change or anything that should be added. Great poem. :)

[Atonement]

Yeah I didnt like it, in my head, it s tarted out great with like this whole, human nature thing, but then it just kinda fell apart.

[SirRawrsalot]

I think it was that you had this great idea and brought it out, and it was a great idea, but it was something that is hard to build on. So you get 2 sections of it and then you run out of material.

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Flowing.

Life is full of emotions.
Some are mad,
Some are happy,
Some are sad.

When we cry,
We are flooded with tears,
We cannot do anything,
But release all our fears.

We are empty,
And we are just a hole,
There is no laughter,
But only our soul.

We open up our hearts,
So you can see all,
All you think is hurt,
That giant black wall.

You pry to knock it down,
You push and you pull,
Just to get a glimpse,
Of our very fragile soul.

I can do this,
All on my own,
So you can just go,
And leave me alone.

Though I need help,
I need to want it for me,
So stop searching and ripping,
That is my plea.

I sit here and cry,
Out of sadness indeed,
To release all the pain,
That caused me to bleed.

These rivers down my cheek,
The tears that flow,
Burn into my feelings,
Like a stabbing blow.

I wipe these away,
And clean up my pain,
For I am still wet,
From all this rain.

I now show no hurt,
Yet you still see,
The lack of trust,
Inside of me.

[SirRawrsalot]

That poem is perfect. "I now show no hurt, Yet you still see, The lack of trust, Inside of me." Favorite line. I loved that one. I think that might be my favorite. If I had to find one thing wrong with it (I've been looking for 5-10 mins), it would be that it needs an original title to suit the poem, but "crying" doesn't do it justice. It's a good title for now though. Excellent!

[george]

I loved it :D Same thing with Elliot, if I had to find anything wrong with it NOW (because Addison changed the title) I'd say......
We are empty,
And we are just a hole,
There is no laughter,
But only our soul.
For some odd reason, soul and hole didn't rhyme in my head for like 10 minutes then it just started to rhyme, idk why lol

[SirRawrsalot]

I have a different opinion. I liked that rhyme.

[george]

Oh woops lol I didn't finish what I meant to say. Edited lol I meant it didn't rhymee until after like 10 minutes.

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Void.

You are my darkness,
You are my empty void,
I need some to fill,
What you have destroyed.

I need to breathe,
I need your air,
To fill my lungs,
And show you care.

I have what I wanted,
I lack what I need,
I have all the wonders,
But what you lead.

You have shattered my heart,
And left nothing but black,
You are the one thing,
That I still lack.

I want what others have,
I want what they get for free,
I crave all your peace,
I lust for what you get to be.

Its been so long,
Since you ignored me,
And chose the other two,
As if out of glee.

My void is still empty,
Still not filled with you,
I feel the need,
To give you this clue.

Try to bulid the bridge,
Make the first move,
So I can see,
If you have anything to prove.

Repair that hole,
Mend your pit,
Fill my void,
To show that you care,
Just a little bit.

[george]

I like it :D I like all your poems and I dont get how your so good at poetry lol. You can feel when your reading it that its about someone thats heartbroken.

[theOperaGhost]

All of it is absolutely amazing, Addison. I can't even pick a favorite, because they are all so good.

[Kiros]

True, true. You're very talented Addison. And yes, Void was an awesome addition - especially with it's unconventional 5-line ending. :)

[Atonement]

Woot woot, unconventional = good.

Thanks Ben.

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Release.

Leave me alone,
Get out of my head,
I am too sick,
I can't go to bed.

Going in circles,
Talking out loud,
I have gone crazy,
My head is a crowd.

I need to get away,
And escape your corruption,
I want to release,
This dormant eruption.

Can I run away to Europe?
Or just start driving blind?
But how can I run,
From your poisin in my mind.

I want to break free,
Your chains hold me back,
Send me away,
Give me some slack.

I write this now,
In an attempt to run,
And fine a way out,
But I can find none.

[Zephyr]

Escape!
Viva!
I just noticed that you poked me.
But...
I feel like that right now too...

[theOperaGhost]

Awesome, Addison...I rate Release as one of your best...at least to me.

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Finish.

*note* this is really bad, so dont be too brutal.

I dont steal,
And I dont lie,
But I can feel,
And I can cry.

A fact,
I'll bet you never knew.
But to cry,
In front of you,
That's the worse thing,
I could do.

You said be tough,
Buck up and take the hits,
Shut up dumbass,
Stop throwing the fits.

I'd rather you yell,
You scream and you punch,
Than sit there and ignore,
My invitation to lunch.

What digs deeper than hate?
The neglect I endure,
The shouts I could handle,
That I ensure.

Todd turn to me now,
Look me straight in the eyes,
And tell me you don't want me,
And what you despise.

Give me the truth,
Push me away,
So I know I'm not welcome,
So I can go on and play.

Give me that shove,
That ultimate cold shoulder,
To send me off,
So I can grow older.

I await your call,
So I can pick up,
And all that you'll say,
Hey, what's up?

[theOperaGhost]

It's really not bad, you should give yourself more credit.

[Atonement]

oh it is and you know it jared lol

[Zephyr]

Sad :(
I loved it hun!
You're so good at conveying your emotions through poetry.

[electric7rocker]

i think you should get a deviantart(.com) :P its pretty cool
lots of feedback
im REWINDtheNIGHT if you decide to check it out

[Atonement]

Okay, I dont want any bullshit telling me not to believe in God because that is not what this poem is for. I get one comment like that and Im taking it down.

Ever since I got home from Bible camp, I just have problems staying close to God and it hard core bothers me but there is nothing I can do about it, so this is my mini plea, there is like an 8 page poem i have in my notebook but there is really no substance but, here is a bit.

Faith

I want to stay in touch,
I dont want to drift away,
I like to be close to you,
And try to always pray.

Too many distractions,
So many people say no,
They try to take me away from you,
And keep from what I know.

I know its not right,
I need to stay with you,
But I have no support,
To help me see what you do.

Lord keep me in your arms,
Shelter me from the temptation,
I need to be faithful,
I need a strong relation.

[Zephyr]

Keep the faith brotha'!

[The Batman]

Might I add some constructive criticism. I think you should work on your title's they all seem to be one word that goes straight to the point. Why not make them something more meaningful that catches your attention more.

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Return.

My burden is back,
The thing that I dread,
She won't go away,
She stays in my head.

I used to hide behind her,
She was my only hope,
Then she turned her back on me,
So I had to learn to cope.

She used to define me,
She made me into this,
The nervous crazy bastard,
That turns away from bliss.

I can't hide forever,
Though I can try,
She won't go away from me,
She always makes me cry.

Stay away much longer,
Never return to me,
Bitch,
Give up and go,
And leave my sanity's key.

[george]

For some reason, when I read this I tried to find the like....hidden thing in the poem but I didn't see anything but what was there.

Amazing poem Addison :) Keep them coming

[Atonement]

IM bumping this because i want opinions!

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Relapse.
I am so scared.
My trigger is back,
Is this all it takes?
To make me crack?

I've denied your existance,
I ignored your return,
I just want to hide back,
And face only what I yearn.

Last time I faced you,
I was put away,
How I can I look back,
And become your new prey?


I love what is good about you,
and overlook the bad,
But when the good is absent,
I end up going mad.

Let go of your grip,
I want to go free,
Return,
To what you used to be.

Do I face all my fears?
And risk going there,
Just so I go mad,
And rip out my hair?

I want to go back,
To the old and calm times,
When you didn't turn on me,
And commit all these crimes.

Can I do it?
Turn back to your life?
When I was okay?
Without using the knife?

[theOperaGhost]

Another amazing poem, Addison! I love reading your poems.

[george]

Like all your other poems, this one is great. I hope you'll be ok...

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Reach

I want to reach out,
Just to try us again,
To see if I hate you,
Just like it was back then.

I dont understand.
You want me to visit,
After what you know,
How you made me want to quit.

Give up already,
Stop playing with my heart,
And fueling my thoughts,
That tear my apart.

Do I reach out to you,
And hope its okay?
Or stay safe and calm,
Away from you each day.

I don't know if I can do it,
If I can put myself out there,
Just so I can look,
And find out if you care.

Dad,
Do you want this for you,
Do you want this for me?
I wander your motives.
Ha,
We'll see.

[george]

Ah :) Great poem like always, you should try and publish them unless you feel that they're to personal =\ but yeah, that's how good they are. I liked the ending to this one too.

[Atonement]

I really want to put up another one I have in my head but im too tired so Ill post it tomorrow

[theOperaGhost]

I can't wait to see it, Addison!

[Atonement]

And you didn't even post on my last one. Im crushed Jared. Crushed

[theOperaGhost]

Haha, you just had to bring that up...I'm sorry that I'm crushing you though, I'll never sit on you again. Your last poem was one of your best actually. See I suck at commenting on things, because all of my good comments are the same, so yeah...

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Plea

Girl, whats happened?
We used to just play,
Just have fun,
Day after day.

Then it happened,
Here came your man,,
I'm trying to save you,
Everyway I can.

Stop running form me,
Just turn and face my truth,
I just want to stop this,
So you may save your youth.

Why can't we be friends anymore?
Is he better than me?
Just notice my effort,
That is my last plea.

Stop opening your legs,
Keep your voice strong,
Please push them away,
Know your right from wrong.

Stay with your morals,
Keep with your support,
Love,
Start quitting this sport.

I want to protect you,
To keep you the same,
So you dont become,
What your friends became.

[george]

I like it, and I know that sounds repetitive but all your poems are so good lol

I like how this one has a caring tone to it.

[theOperaGhost]

Awesome, Addison! Another great poem. This has a much different tone and topic then normal, and I like it, even though it talks of something negative.

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You.

You tease me,
You jest,
You pay attention,
Unlike the rest.

You give me pride,
That I am the one you notice,
You give me the hope,
That you'll be my first kiss

You are my crush,
My goal of each day,
Just to get see,
Those eyes of pure gray.

You light up my time,
Just to hear your tone,
It comforts me even,
When I know I'm alone.

We talk everyday,
Just to have some fun,
Without noticing to me,
You're as bright as the sun.

I wonder if you see,
My craving for your care,
That for you,
I would go anywhere.

Will you turn around,
Just to see me here,
So that you can wipe away,
My dead empty tear.

[george]

Aaawwww :) I love it. It has a really nice feeling and tone to it.

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Walk.

You turned your back,
When I needed you most,
You walked away,
And went to boast.

You stepped in the spotlight,
And knew I was in danger,
Only to act,
And pretend I'm a stranger.

All my secrets you have,
All the secrets I know,
To step out and leave me,
As low as my low.

You visited me,
When my times were the worst,
And then walked away,
Just letting me burst.

I needed your hug,
Your nice little grin,
But you just turned,
Back to your life of sin.

Dude,
Come lift me to my feet,
And help me up,
From my life of defeat.

[Atonement]

No title

She left you,
She had me,
Get over it,
Let us be.

Where did you go,
Did you walk away too?
Trust me I'm used to it,
Its nothing new.

Do you reject me?
Push me away,
So that I hurt,
Day after day.

Now you want me back,
And told me to come,
Promising affection,
Like I want some.

You crushed my hope,
You stabbed it out,
It was dirty and foul,
And replace it with doubt.

Stilll leaving me hanging,
Ruining my week,
Looking forward to the time,
When I'll forget how to speak.

[Atonement]

Break

Roll your eyes,
Turn your head,
Ignore the signs,
That my life is dead.

You know that I'm broken,
You see that I am alone,
All you need to do,
Is pick up that phone.

I want your affection,
Just that little look,
So my heart is okay,
From the pain it has took.

I know you see me,
I see your care,
You notice my scars,
And you rip out your hair.

I try to hide,
From all their harm,
The only problem is,
The cuts on my arm.

I put up my walls,
So my friends can break in,
Maybe you'll get to me,
And finally,
We'll win.

[george]

Ah, you really do have a gift at poetry Addison. I think I really like "Walk" out of the 3. Keep em coming Addi. :)

[theOperaGhost]

Break really is just...special. It's perfect. They are all special, Addison. You just keep getting better as you keep writing, and you started off quite well to begin with. You really do have a talent for this. The only bad thing I can see about them are that they are mostly negative and come from your own personal feeling. It's good that they come from your personal feelings, but it's all negative. (that isn't a criticism, BTW) I wish you had more positive stuff to write about. You are amazing and I just can't wait to read more!

[Atonement]

Thanks guys. Ugh, I wish more people gave me opinions. not like yours aren't good enough. just sayin.

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Deny

It is so wrong,
That you can control my life,
To the point,
To force me to take up the knife.

I give up my love,
To stay from your abuse,
By simply stating,
"You should tie your noose"

You push me to quit,
My true love's release,
And make my heart beat,
Forever cease.

Day after day,
I take your blows,
And I can't just look at it,
As if its what life throws.

I need to abandon,
This false hope of a bond,
When we can stop,
And pass this beyond.

How can I do anything?
To fix my problem of you,
When everyone would hate me,
And shift all my own view.

I can't deny,
The turmoil you've caused,
I'll try to deny,
My love that you've paused.

[theOperaGhost]

That one has a different tone than I am used to I think. I'm not really sure. I like it!

[Atonement]

Flirt.

You love me,
Right?
Can't keep you from my,
Sight.

You play with my hair,
Pull on my shirt,
Rub my chest,
Pull up your skirt.

Ask me to play,
We are great friends,
You say you want more,
Before this fun ends,

Keep teasing me on,
You want to be more,
More than just friends,
You flirt with me sore.

Baby, choose just me,
Stop getting around,
Pick me,
And keep my mind sound.

Stop teasing them all,
Only flirt with me,
Be who you are,
But only ever with me.

If you dont want my love,
Stop twisting my heart,
So that I can run away,
Or I'll tear your heart apart.

[theOperaGhost]

Very good, Addison! I really like this one a lot. This one stands out differently. I like all of them, but I think this one might currently be my favorite!

[Atonement]

Am I the only one that loves the fact that Jared's favorrite poem just happens to be about a slut?

[theOperaGhost]

Yes, Addison, you are...haha...jkjk.

[george]

There's nothing wrong with having a favorite poem just HAPPENS to be about a slut lol....or is there....jk

Another great poem Addison. All your poems seem to have really good endings like this one. I don't know which one is my favorite :O they're all so good.

[Atonement]

Boredom./Remedial.

Whats the point,
I sit each day,
Wasting my time,
Rotting away.

You waste my time,
You make me wait,
I pass the time,
A punishment for this trait.

Fuck you education,
You hold me back,
My abilities,
Exceed this pack.

I could go on,
And learn all I can,
So I can succed,
And fulfill my true plan.

Why do I wait,
For all of my peers,
When I should be ahead,
Multiple years.

Thank you for maximizing,
My learning potential,
Instead you suppress my dreams,
Which are so essential.

Even my writing,
Which is so refined,
You regard,
As truly unkind.

Well screw you school,
You've driven me to tears,
I am so bored,
Yet Im stuck here,
For three more years.

[george]

It really does sound like your bored with school. Great poem :) KEEP WRITING THEM. Why are you bored with school though?

[theOperaGhost]

Great poem, Addison! I can really relate to this one. It may even beat the slut one.

[Atonement]

Jared picking insulting my school over sluts? never.

[Atonement]

Rhythm.

Beat by beat.
Life marches on,
Clap by clap,
On goes the song.

Everyone says,
Stay on beat,
Don't stop clapping,
No matter the heat.

Left foot,
Right,
Keep on marching,
No stopping to fight.

Stay on rhythm,
Don't get off your path,
You step off,
And you face life's wrath.

Good luck clapping along,
Keep stomping your feet,
Walking through life,
Never missing a beat.

[george]

"Stay on rhythm,
Don't get off your path"

But what IS ones path? lol jk

Pretty good poem, it has a much more neutral tone to it. I doubt you could write a poem that someone WON'T like lol

[Atonement]

Speak up.


Can't you say it?
Say what you need,
Voice yourself,
And hear my creed.

Grow some balls,
Ask me that question,
All you need,
Is to mention.

You have a desire,
To know how I feel,
Ask me already,
So we can close this deal.

You've heard what I think,
And you know I am here,
Instead you ignore me,
And crack open a beer.

Acknowledge the issue,
Embrace the day,
Just try to fix it,
Each and every way.

Ask it already,
I've been waiting for years,
Even enduring,
All of your jeers.

Dad,
Ask me why,
Find out my problems,
I want you to pry.

Gather the guts,
So you can speak up,
I need you to say more,
Than just "Sup?"

Acknowledge my hurt,
That you broke my heart,
Dad,
Ask me already,
Do we need a new start?

[george]

Amazing poem :) The ending seems, well to me, very uplifting to me I guess, hope everything goes well with you and him.

[theOperaGhost]

I'll talk about rhythm first. I like it. It actually sounds inspirational to me. Where you going at that, or am I getting it wrong? haha...I get it as a follow your dreams kind of thing.

Next, Speak Up. I am very familiar with your feelings on this, not because I've experienced them, because I haven't, but I know from talking to you. It's another perfect expression. I like them both.

[Atonement]

Thanks for the comments everyone. Means a lot. And if anyone else is reading this and thinking they don't want to or need to comment, please do. Whether bad or good, i want to know it.

[Atonement]

Tempt.

You caress me softly,
You make me feel great,
We hold hands,
And we have the date.

You slice my flesh,
You make me feel high,
We fool around,
And you nip my thigh.

You flirt with my emotions,
You tease my love,
I love you so,
You are my true love.

You poke my feelings,
You tug on my strings,
I feel so shitty after,
My ears just ring.

I love you so,
Im addicted to you,
You tug on my heart,
I need something new.

[Θάνατος]

Hey this is a good poem and it shows your pain. Keep writing and exhibit yout talent. It is good that you can express your feelings here.

[theOperaGhost]

Addison, that is really good. Maybe if you keep writing these poems, that can be the thing you need to get over the addiction. I'll do anything I can to help. There's not too much I can do, but I can care, and I do.

[george]

Great poem, keep writing about how you feel. Like Jared, maybe if you do keep writing, you'll be able to get over the addiction. We all care about you Addi, we just want you to be safe :)

[Atonement]

Chase

My heart beats every time,
My anxiety stops,
You capture my love,
And my wall just drops.

Your love is forever,
The way you play with my hair,
Everthing you do is good,
Even just breathing my air.

Too bad you don't look at me,
In the way I would desire,
I that your heart,
Is what I could acquire.

Everyday I see you,
You start my day,
You end my hurt,
And my heart you betray.

I will see you again,
And my heart will race,
Then again,
We will start this chase.

[theOperaGhost]

Awesome, Addison! The ending is brilliant. Keep them coming.

[Atonement]

Right so I am digging the fact that the only people that look at this are George and Jared and ocassionally Rob. So, if you are reading this and aren't planning on posting a comment. You better...

[The Batman]

I read them all the time but I'm more of a silent observer. They are nice though.

[Atonement]

Care.

You say you love Addison,
I can fall and you'll catch me,
But I still ask myself,
Is that all I can see?

I get a hug when I'm down,
You wipe away my tears,
You pick me off the ground,
And hide me from all my fears.

In your arms everything's okay,
You act like I'll be fine,
You think you can fix,
All the problems that are mine.

You listen to me always,
I give you my secrets to share,
I still feel that you're fake,
I dont know if you care.

[theOperaGhost]

Another good one! It shows issues you have with trusting people I think. Keep them coming (again) lol!

[george]

Chase has a great ending and care show how you question yourself about the person. Great poems but I always feel weird kinda saying the same thing each time you post another great poem lol But yeah, keep them coming :)

[Atonement]

Shiney.

Mom,
Stop playing with machine,
Its the only one,
That will output some bling.

You are there,
From three to nine,
Sitting at that casino,
Its my turn to draw the line.

Come home,
I miss you being here,
You're never around,
Just you and your beer.

I haven't seen you,
Not since three days ago,
As I sit home waiting for you,
The time passes so slow.

Why can't you come home,
Won't you quit,
Mom,
I need you,
I'm sick of this shit.

[Θάνατος]

Care.

You say you love Addison,
I can fall and you'll catch me,
But I still ask myself,
Is that all I can see?

I get a hug when I'm down,
You wipe away my tears,
You pick me off the ground,
And hide me from all my fears.

In your arms everything's okay,
You act like I'll be fine,
You think you can fix,
All the problems that are mine.

You listen to me always,
I give you my secrets to share,
I still feel that you're fake,
I dont know if you care.

Addi that is a great poem. I know I care about you and want to help you. I will be here always for you Bro.

[Θάνατος]

Addi, your last poem made me cry. You write with such emotion. Keep writing they are getting better.

[Atonement]

Rush.

My heart is pumping,
You chase me down the street,
I hide in the bushes,
Trying to stay mostly discrete.

We've all been drinking,
But the cops came and found us,
We bolted through the window,
Heard my friends cuss.

She forgot her shoe,
The one thing she cares for,
Because she was drunk,
That shoe is gone forever more.

Run faster,
I can't keep with you,
As the gap between us,
Got larger and grew.

Just then i tripped,
Over my foot I go,
I stick to the floor,
I tried to stay low.

They drove right by,
My friends got caught,
Thats when I ended my rush,
They lost freedom that we had sought.

[theOperaGhost]

Shiney told me something I never really knew. It was something new to me and it got me interested. I've never really heard you say too much about your mom, a little, but most of the time you write about your dad.

Rush, is just what the name says, it's a rush! It's exciting.

[Atonement]

Wow, Rob, George, and Jared again. lol. Thanks guys.

[george]

I liked how, even though Shiney was suppose to be I guess a sad poem, you used the word bling in it and that made smile. Still a great poem and you don't really talk about your mom much so I never really saw that coming. I know how you feel about not seeing your mom for days...except my mom would just leave early and come home late on purpose.

Rush is a great poem, I could imagine everything in my mind so clearly. It really is a rush lol

[Atonement]

Bound.

I have found you,
You have revealed yourself at last,
Your truth and your lies,
And now in the past.

You have opened my eyes,
We are now one open book,
All we had to do,
Was to flip the page and take a look.

We now have the bond,
Of telling eachother it all,
If we ever need eachother,
We just have to call.

No more teasing,
No more fooling around,
We are best friends now,
We are truly bound.

You are my new sister,
Its okay to spill out your life,
As long as your there for me too,
And help me put down the knife.

[george]

Oooo another GREAT poem, this one has like, a new beginning feeling to it. Keep on writing Addi :) We want to read them!! lol

[Atonement]

Sprial.

My head is spinning,
Can't keep it on,
I will sit there each night,
Spinning till dawn.

I need to slow it down,
Just flip on the brakes,
I want to stop this racing,
Come on, for God sakes.

I want to stay,
In my proper state,
But I can't stop this pacing,
Until its too late.

I spin down and down,
Going lower and low,
Why can't I stop it,
I want it to slow.

Falling farther and farther,
I'm falling on my face,
I need to pick up the pieces,
And find my sanity's trace.

[theOperaGhost]

I agree with George on Bound. It's got a positive tone to it, and it's just very good!

I love Spiral...I think I have a new favorite...Very well written. It's just beautiful.

[Antares]

I like your poems.
I think they are very...deep and thats a good thing. You should write a book and put some haikos in it :D lol

[Θάνατος]

Rush is good Addi. It reminds me of my younger and more wilder days.

Bound was awesome too. I almost thought you were talking about me on that one until you mentioned the girl.

Spiral has some deep meaning there. I agree with Jared , you keep getting better with each poem that you write.

Addi keep writing these awesome poems and I will get others to read them.

[george]

We got another commenter!! :D

Another great poem Addi, all your poems have really good endings like this one. Love all your poems Addi, keep em coming.

[Atonement]

woot, a new routine poster

[Atonement]

Grip

Getting harder to breathe,
You tighten your grip,
Making it easier,
Easier to slip.

The more you push,
The more I hide,
You keep pressuring me,
With all of your pride.

Take a step back,
Just let me be me,
Just take a step back,
And you will see.

You control my life.
Each movement I shift,
The more your influence retrains,
The more I drift.

Loosen your noose,
I want to run free,
Go away for now,
I just want to be me.

[theOperaGhost]

Nice, Addison! I love it!

[george]

Great poem Addi, keep on writing them and we'll be here to read em lol

[Θάνατος]

Nice poem you write with such passion. You can feel the words as you read them.

[Atonement]

Betray

I trusted you with everything,
I told you every piece of my heart,
Then you go and betray my trust,
And you know it will tear me apart.

How could you do this?
You say you'll never hurt me,
You say you love me still,
Yet I try to stop it and plea.

Get the FUCK away from me,
I don't want you around anymore,
Leave me alone already,
And stop being an easy whore.

Why did you betray me?
And stab me in the back,
Do what you said you wouldn't,
Yet you put me under attack.

------------------------------

As I think of what you've done,
I only lay here and cry,
I am finished with this shit,
I still want to die.

[theOperaGhost]

Good job, Addison. Keep on writing them.

[Ultraviolet]

Awesome a poetry journal. Poetry is such a beautiful and expressive art. Keep it up Addison, I'm going to enjoy reading all these :D. From what I read they're excellent.

[george]

Great poem Addi, hope your ok :hug:

Love, Your red headed step child.

[Θάνατος]

Addi, You can really feel your feeling in this poem it seems so real as i read the poem. I can feel your pain with you. I am always here for you.

[Atonement]

Boredom

Day by day,
I sit there and wait,
Im bored to tears,
Its already too late.

Im too far ahead,
The class moves too slow,
It tears me down,
Its a huge blow.

Its too late to skip ahead,
The system holds me back,
It ruins my potential,
And I learn nothing but jack.

If wish I would've skipped,
Could've challenged me more,
Instead I just sit here,
While they eternally bore.

[theOperaGhost]

That one is really good, Addison! That is how high school was for me and a couple of my classmates too...

[george]

Nice poem Addi, you must be really bored with high school, isn't there anyway you can take more advanced classes or are you already taking the hardest classes?

[Θάνατος]

Addi it sucks You live in a small city where you don't have AP classes that you could take for not only High school credit but for college credit too.

[Atonement]

Tremble

The high I can feel,
The hell I endure,
She said I could control it,
I can't of this I am sure.

Its all in my head,
I can't keep it from ruling,
I want it to slow down,
My fire its fueling.

I shake and I tremble,
I cry and shudder in terror,
The tremors are unbearable,
All of thems are errors.

I cling to all hope,
I hide from the truth,
I deny my problems,
In ignorant youth.

My hands are trembling,
They tingle in motions,
I've given up the hope,
I can't handle these emotions.

[Θάνατος]

Addi once again a real good poem. Keep writing you feelings here.

[theOperaGhost]

That's very good, Addison! Rob's right, keep putting your emotions out here.

[Atonement]

Regress

The sirens will sound,
The alarm will blare,
Again I wake,
Its so unfair.

Wake up each day,
At seven thirty,
Just to go out and march,
And get all dirty.

I get into school,
Day after day,
Wasting my time,
With so much to say.

My effort is absent,
My love is not there,
If they would just teach me,
Just to show that they care.

Do you hate me so much?
That I cant make any progress,
But what you only force me to do,
Is regress.

[theOperaGhost]

0.o!! Good job again, Addison! You are amazing.

[george]

Tremble and Regress were great poems. Sorry that you can't take many advanced classes cause you live in a small town =\ Keep on writing :)

[Atonement]

Flood.

The emotion overwhelms,
My control is all lost,
I can't hold up the levees,
Its not worth the cost.

Wave after wave,
Surges push the wall,
They're pushing so hard,
The prevention might just fall.

I need some supports,
Some legs to hold me up,
Im swept off my feet,
The water has erupt.

Too late,
The rivers flow,
The levees have broken,
The flood has come,
And I am swept low.

[rsc4life]

Love it, that is excellent! It flows so well, I love it! You are an excellent poet! :D

[george]

Amazing poem, loved how you used a flood as a metaphor for everything.

[Θάνατος]

Reces is very good I feel you pain in that poem.


Flood is very well written it made me cry. It made me think about my problems and how they over take me at times too.

[theOperaGhost]

Flood is amazing, Addison! You've got a great talent here, bud.

[rsc4life]

I just read regress. Love it!

[Atonement]

Merry Go Round

We go around,
Cycling in loops,
Faster and more violent,
Oh no don't fall!
Oops...

On our face,
We all look merry,
Then on the inside,
Nothing is more scary.

Jump off the equipment,
Get off the track,
Going too swift,
Sight is going black.

You're moving to fast,
My life is all a blur,
Slow it down,
And look where we were.

Spinning so fast,
On this merry-go-round,
Oh shit,
I fell,
I lie on the ground.
... as the sirens sound.

[theOperaGhost]

Damn, Addison, you've got an amazing talent for writing poetry. I think they keep getting better too, and the first ones were quite good. Keep writing them!

[Atonement]

Meh, i mean, i like writing but i still wish more people read and or commented on the,

[Θάνατος]

Way that poem is true fr most of us. We just get caught up in life as it just keeps spinning out of control. Addi I hope you have these all saved so you can make a book of poetry one day and make millions.

[george]

Yeah, that poem is really like a lot of us, like Rob said, we just get caught up and lose control. Great poem Addi, but if you want more people to read it, maybe you should put a link in your sig to like advertise it. I don't think Addi would want to make a book out of ALL the poems here, maybe a few select ones, seeing as how these are really personal, though if he DID make a book it'd be really good :)

[ShatteredWings]

Meh, i mean, i like writing but i still wish more people read and or commented on the,

i quietly lurk here...

but. wow. dude, i can't.. wow. what you write is amazing

[Atonement]

Deception.

The lies you have told me,
Every day and night,
Have crushed down my heart,
And my will to fight.

The venom from your tongue,
The coldness of your heart,
Continue to lie,
But I am too smart.

The unreal sight,
That I see everyday,
Is the lie of the century,
Thats all I can say.

Your lies fuel my fire,
The blazing fiery hate,
You lie and tell me wrong,
And deceive your fate.

Each untrue fact,
Every little lie,
Every single act of untrue,
Sparks my unending cry.

[Θάνατος]

Wow nice poem Addi, there ia a lot of truth and feeling in this poem.

[cookiegirl]

WOW i know exactly what you mean i do the same thing and no-one has ever understood why i cant let the past be the past why i dwell on things and am consumed like you i want to let it go but cant

[Atonement]

Really I am just bumping this so more people will read it now since more are on... :)

Thanks Alexa.

[george]

Great poem Addi, and you know we read your poems :P

[stotty]

All those poems really hit me deep. Those are awesome. Keep up the great work.

[rsc4life]

I do like deception.

[Atonement]

Time

My life flashes foward,
The days fly past,
Our lapse slids by,
Its going too fast.

The time will run out,
The end will come,
Time won't stop ticking,
Till the time is done.

Will our time come?
Will the clock chime six?
When we will encounter,
As the clock gently ticks.

Is my time running out?
Is my last chance elapsed?
Will my heart be crushed?
When my drive is collapsed?

I want you right now,
I can't wait anymore,
I want you immediately,
My heart is so sore.

[theOperaGhost]

Nice, Addison...haven't seen a new poem in a while...good to see!

[Zephyr]

This one is now my favorite = ]
LOVE it Addi!
You convey your emotion so well.

[Θάνατος]

Very good poem Addi. You are such an awesome artist and poet.

[Atonement]

Reason.

Whats the reason?
Whats the point?
That we should live,
Without breaking our joint.

Tell me the purpose.
Reveal to me the truth,
Whisper the secret,
To the point of youth.

Do you even know?
How can you tell me what you lack?
How would you know?
All you do is turn your back.

I give up,
I don't care anymore,
I don't ant your shit,
You know what?
Fuck it.

[rsc4life]

Wow, that was really emotional. I liked it.

[theOperaGhost]

Ok, now I am officially going to say Reason is my favorite. Awesome.

[george]

Time and Reason are GREAT poems Addi, haven't seen you post a new poem in awhile, good to see your writing again :)

[Atonement]

Stare.

As I walk down t he hall,
Everyone stares,
Whether its fake smiles,
Or those judging glares.

They all watch me,
They turn their head,
They don't know,
I heard what they said.

Would they say what they say?
If they knew what I know?
Would my pathetic truth,
Interrupt their gossip flow?


Would they think twice,
About their rude hate,
If they realized my pain,
Would it change their fate?

They judge without truth,
As if it is rare,
All they know to do,
Is judge and stare.

[theOperaGhost]

That one is great, Addison. I can relate to it somewhat.

[cookiegirl]

Addi you are truely gifted... i wish i had your talent i used to think i was pretty good at writting poetry now i am not so sure :P but hey its all good the world needs people like you who can envoke such emotion and feeling even though some of these things havent happened in the exact same way for me, when i read them i feel like that have

[Θάνατος]

Oh wow this is your best one yet. I totally felt this one a I read it. I do know how you felt while writing this one. People are so cruel and judge you and don't care what pain you are going through. As i read this poem it brought back all the pain I felt when I cam out to my friends and they all abandoned me.

Addi this poem was awesome but at the same time it brought back a lot of pain for me. Good job and keep writing these poems they are so good.

[Atonement]

Tears.

The tears roll down my face,
As if to wash away the pain,
The days and times,
That drive me insane.

The break in my heart,
Opens more every day,
To reveal my true feelings,
What I yearn to say.

It rolls over my skin,
The freckles and all,
Without the hope,
That your apology will call.

The story of my life,
Creates my future fears,
That kindle and burn,
And produce all my tears.

[theOperaGhost]

Addison, you keep getting better with every poem. I love reading them, bro.

[Θάνατος]

Addi you are incredible. I don't know how you keep improving on your poems but you really do.

[Atonement]

Haven't posted one in... ever so... he its goes.

Thrive
I need stimulation,
My mind is mush,
This is so boring,
Give me a push.

I want to just quit,
Stop wasting my time,
I wish it was harder,
It should be a crime.

I give up on my education,
Its a pointless hobby,
I need to open my eyes,
And look what there is to see.

Get me out of this hell,
I need to be free,
The express my mind,
And be who I am meant to be.

[Atonement]

I wrote this quite a while ago, but I thought I would post it because its still kinda relevant. If you read it, pleeeease post because it means the world to me when someone does.

Fled.

The thoughts always linger,
Just on the tip of my tongue,
They never seem to cease,
Been there since I was young.

I want to get them out,
Release them all,
It'd be a smooth motion,
No one would ball.

I could stop all my whining,
My complaining and tears,
I'll leave you alone,
I'll end all your fears.

Everytime I say something,
I over react,
I cause all the drama,
And make such an impact.

I'm sorry for bringing it up,
And bothering your time,
To burden your thoughts,
Weighed down by my crime.

Push me to go away,
Tell me to do it,
So I can stop whining,
And bothering you with my fit.

It'd be so easy,
Just a swallow or slice,
Its so elementary,
Not rolling the dice.

How will they feel,
When I am gone at last,
Knowing they told me,
To do it nice and fast.

Tempted to prove them wrong,
Wanting to show my point,
Not giving them power,
Not wanting to disappoint.

You say nows not the time,
You turned away and fled,
Now you regret it,
Because I am dead.

[Zephyr]

No. You're not bothering me.
Nobody wants you gone,
Or dead.

As always, very good at conveying your emotions hun = ]

[george]

Awww hopefully it won't be relevant anymore soon. You never bother me and to be honest I think I bother you to much :\

It's a great poem and very well written :]

[Atonement]

Right, so if you actually think you know what this poem is about, circumstances lead you astray because chances are you are wrong.

Get out.

Get out of my face,
Run away now,
I want you to stop telling me,
Who what when or how.

The constant hate,
The unending remarks,
Stop kicking and pushing,
And throwing me to sharks.

I don't understand it,
Why you don't give up,
Just leave me alone,
Shut the fuck up.

What have I done to you?
Have you offended you so?
That you would attack me,
And beat me so low.

Your hate and your yelling,
Your spite and your blows,
Does nothing but damage,
And release the river's flows.

I'll burst out and scream,
For you've ruined my life,
Get out of my face,
I'll reach for my knife.

[Atonement]

Poem #60 that I've post on VT.

Someone.

I want them to notice,
I trust in their sense,
That they might see me,
And stop being so dense.

I hide it and cover up,
For I'm not strong enough to show,
How I truly feel inside,
What I honestly know.

Won't you open your eyes?
So you can view all my pain,
I want some help,
So I can end all this strain.

I need someone to know,
I need somone to care,
I need.
Someone?

[Atonement]

Been a while

Scream
The screaming won't stop,
Constant shrieks,
I'm falling apart,
My heart faintly creeks.

I fear myself,
I am afraid for my sanity,
I'm going insane,
Over all of their vanity,

Get the fuck out of my head,
Stop all the commotion,
I need a break,
A personal devotion.

Release me from the pain,
Let me run away,
So I can get to as far from myself,
So I might be okay.

[Atonement]

1/10/09

You hurt me,
You told me something false,
You attacked my attachment,
You've stopped my pulse.

Why did you say those things,
When you knew it was a lie,
And then you went against it,
And chose to make me cry.

You've turned you back to me,
When I've always been there for you,
And stabbed me in the heart,
Without having a clue.

It feels like you knew,
You did it to hurt me,
To choose him over your friend,
Instead of letting our relationship be.

I don't want to see you,
I don't want to think,
You're choice makes me die,
And let my heart slowly sink.

[Atonement]

The smile on your face,
It lets me know I helped,
I stepped out and talked,
And you never even yelped.

Smile so I know,
And can see that you're okay,
I can read you like a book,
You shouldn't even try to say,
"I'm okay" when you're not.


We are two different people,
Nothing in common at all,
Different groups in school,
Yet we nod in the hall.

I noticed something different,
You were acting so odd,
Your shine had faded,
As shiney as a coal rod.

I can even imagine how much it hurts,
With all the shit in your mind,
So I'll make you smile,
And stop all the bind.

From two different worlds yet...
Smile my friend for the day is beautiful,
And the time we spend,
Will make our relationship flavourful.

I like to help you,
I want to do what I can,
Just so you'll smile,
And say "Thanks man."


This is a poem I like, but I need to change it up and add, subtract, rearrange and format, but I am looking for criticism, So tell mewhat to change and I will come back and change it.

Feel free to look through and comment all everything you want, from past, present, and if you have suggestions for future.

:daisy: night.

[george]

It's great to see another poem Addi :) and one that has a very....lively tone to it in a way.

And because you wanted criticism, I thought some parts of it didn't really flow really well because one line would be long then the other short. Really the only part that kind of threw me off was the rhyming between beautiful and flavorful because it doesn't really...rhyme when you say it, or at least it doesn't really in my head even though it technically does.

But either way, it's still a great poem and I hope to read more from you.
+Rep

[Atonement]

If anyone is out there that hasn't viewed this, I highly encourage you to flip through some, and comment on them. Give me some criticizism. :D

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Open.

Open up your heart,
Reveal what used to be,
When we would talk for hours,
Just you and me.

Tell me what you're thinking,
Describe something new,
Let me know what's happening,
Suggest something to do.

Tell me a secret,
Tell me a tale,
Open up your soul,
Let us see what you entrail.

I want to go back,
To how we used to act,
Joking back and forth,
Without a discomfort intact.

I want you to open,
I'd like to see you smile,
I'd give you a hug,
But I remember every mile.

Why must we be seperate,
Can't you come visit me tonight?
I just want to hang out again,
To prove myself right.

Open up your soul to me,
Reveal all your hidden fun,
So that you and I can chill,
Just me and you, hun.

Note: No, this isn't about anyone on VT :P

[Atonement]

Untitled

Do I annoy you?
Do I drive you insane?
Why is it,
That I feel all this pain.

Rejection can suck,
I know this too well,
Its so ridiculous,
How you make my tear ducts swell.

Give me a sign,
A hint,
Or a clue,
So that I can pick up,
And try to please you.

I'd like that close friend,
The one to tell it all,
But I can't do anything,
I am scared to even call.

I want to be open,
I want to pull you in,
But you keep running away,
Ripping away my skin.

I wish we could be closer,
We could have that special bond,
You are so comfortable,
But to it,
Not so fond.

I want that one person,
The friend that lasts forever,
A person that won't fade away,
No matter how much I try to sever.

[Zephyr]

Outstanding hun = ]
We've all felt like that before,
Which makes it, once again, easy to relate to!

[Patchy]

Addison, these are great seriously +rep to the last one

[george]

We've all felt like that before,
Which makes it, once again, easy to relate to!

That's totally true! Which makes it even better than it was already. Amazing poem Addi, it's great to see you writing poems more often and if you actually have been writing, sorry I didn't notice them :\
Love to read more of your poems. + Rep

[Atonement]

Let Loose

I tremble,
I cry,
I hurt,
I try.

I do the best I can,
You criticize it all,
Is it ever enough,
To make me feel so small?

When will I be enough?
Can I ever be your "good",
I cannot reach that bar,
Though I wish I could.

I know you don't feel it,
I put it on my own,
I cannot control my worth,
What I wish I'd known.

I am perfect in her eyes,
I am crap in my view,
I am crazy in both,
Both me and you.

I drive myself crazy,
On my own choice,
I need help,
But I've lost my voice.

I need to open up,
I have no more excuse,
I want to be free,
I need to let loose.

[Atonement]

Plea
Leave me alone,
Get far away,
I don't want to talk,
I have nothing to say.

I am done faking,
I am done telling lies,
I want to get better,
But I've exhausted all tries.

I push you away,
Because I'm afraid of your tears,
When you find out the hurt,
I've had for years.

I push you away,
For I know that you'll hate me,
Because I cried for help,
A last willing plea.

I push you away,
Because I can't handle that look,
When you discover the feelings,
I've ripped out with a hook.

I'm willing to talk,
I don't know what to say,
Don't leave me alone,
I just don't know what to say.

[Atonement]

Have to.

What the fuck is wrong with me?
Why do I act this way?
I feel so out of control,
It goes on day after day.

You say you'll never talk,
If I become what I am,
I can't do this without you,
I couldn't give a damn.

You're an ass to me now,
But I know all about you,
I can't stand not talking,
Not finding out how you do.

Your hate makes me die,
I can't take the pain,
Why must you be my friend,
My best and main.

I can't control myself anymore,
I don't want to keep the hidden true,
Though you'd be so upset,
Its something I have to do.

[Atonement]

Burst

I can't resist
I have to fulfill the need,
I won't give up,
But I still want to bleed.

I can't take the stress,
I can't take the pressure,
I won't do this anymore,
I have to find a cure.

Each small line,
Get bigger and flow,
My hands are shaking,
My vein starts to blow.

The pressure flows out,
My emotions burst everywhere,
I am numb and can't move,
I don't even care.

One more cut,
One more mark,
Will it ever end,
Ever not dark?

She wispers in my ear,
Here, let me do it,
Next things I know,
I don't know where I sit.

She holds me too tight,
I try to run away,
She cuts me with her sword,
And I am weak for the day.

[STAYING_STRONG4HIM]

You have some amazing poems Addison! I want you to know that your poems have helped me cope through some pretty tough times...and poems are great for telling how you really feel.

[Atonement]

I don't want to loathe him,
I wish I didn't hate,
But I can't deny it,
I won't debate.

I hate him with my heart,
I can't stand his face,
The mere thought of him,
Makes my heart race.

I hate you,
Don't talk to me again,
I don't want to hear your voice,
Don't even begin.

You've hurt me too much,
I don't want to see,
Maybe I'm bitter,
But, I am what I'll be.

You can't talk to me,
I don't want to wait,
You drive me insane,
Its ruining fate.

I want to forgive,
But I hate you too much,
I hide behind my mask,
Leaning on a crutch.

[Atonement]

How far have I come,
How much have I grown?
That I still am bleeding,
Releasing a moan.

I don't know if its better,
I've blocked out the past,
I need to be free again,
But time's flying too fast.

I am a slave to a blade,
A slave to the fears,
A slave to be happy,
No matter the tears.

I'm still triggered the same,
Like I was way back when,
I don't shake as much,
But I keep cutting again.

My cure to my shaking,
My curse to my arm,
My shaking is over,
Only through self-harm.

I can't let it out,
This is the only way,
I want to give up,
Let this be my last day.

[Atonement]

You're my past.
I hate you.
You're my future.
I love you.

You're my constant,
I can't be without you,
I can do anything,
That you can help me do.

My life gets fucked up,
My heart is snapped in half,
But you're always there,
Slicing down my calf.

I can't get much more fucking morbid in this can I? argh.

[EverlostPoet]

nice keep it up, i love it. ~Jake

[Origami]

Some very impressive pieces.
Keep the work up. ;)
Loved Burst.

[Atonement]

We used to hang,
We used to chill,
But then you glare,
Might as well kill.

You distanced yourself
You pushed far away,
Because of "problem"
Of which we can't say.

I can't tell you how much,
My heart splits in parts,
To be ignored,
Feels of 1,000 flying darts.

Why does it matter?
Why cna't we be the same?
As if it were before,
Out the secret came.

You won't talk to me,
Can't look me in the eye,
Because you know if you did,
You'd see someone who wants to die.

Stop acting as if its okay,
Tell me flat out if its not,
So I can kill myself now,
To rid you of this dirty spot.

Give me an answer,
Ass or great mate?
I need a response,
Before it's too late.

[ErykaInspire.]

1) you write ALOT of poetry
2) they're all absolutely amazing :D

[Atonement]

My Fault.

Its my fault you hate me,
Its my fault I'm sad,
Its my fault I'm crying,
Its my fault I'm mad.

I can't stress the blame,
For it is all mine,
I can't give it up,
For its my fault I'm not fine.

Blame me all you want,
I won't fight the facts,
I am to blame,
For my all my acts.

I'm sorry I'm this way,
I could change who I am to be,
Its my fault,
I know you can see.

[Atonement]

Day after day,
Doing the same,
Not hanging out,
No answers came.

I want to hang out,
No one looks at me that way,
I want to be your friend,
But I don't know what to say.

I wish I was different,
I wish people wanted me,
I wish I could make friends,
I wish it was me they could see.

They see a cool cat,
A kid with his stuff all together,
But thats all he'll be,
He's like that forever.

He's the kid you say hi to,
You don't think anything of it,
You just walk by,
While he lingers on that bit.

Why can't I be more?
What makes you want me?
I can't make you desire,
I need to be free.

I need someone else,
Someone that notices the person inside,
Not the nice kid,
going with the tide.

Say more than just hi,
Maybe go out for food,
anything more,
Than just, "Hey dude."