rach0019
September 24th, 2015, 08:48 PM
Long story short we were together long-distance and couldn't see eachother in person as often as we liked, although he lives in NJ and I live in PA. We're both 17. He broke up with me pretty abruptly (just that morning he told me how much he loved me and never wanted to lose me and that I was his soulmate or whatever) and said it was because the distance was way too tough because he was busy, and I'd get mad if he wasn't talking to me enough to satisfy what I thought was enough at the time. I was going through a lot (anxiety and depression) the whole time I dated him and it kind of reflected in our relationship, I was too demanding and not understanding enough when it came to how often he could talk because I literally didn't have a life because my disorders pretty much made me stay in bed all day, which isn't like me at all. There's a possibility I really may have hurt him because he told me it made him feel guilty and I was oblivious at the time but now that I'm feeling a lot better I really get it and I feel SO bad and so embarrassed. He really means a lot to me. We broke up 5 months ago. I just want to make things right, even if that means just being friends. He had reached out and asked if we could be friends after the breakup.
The text: "Hey so ik this is waaaay late but I just wanted to say I'm really sorry for the way I treated you while we were together, you didn't deserve any of that and unfortunately I was in a shitty place last year and now that I'm not anymore it's pretty obvious to me how much of an ass I was to you.. Like I was getting home from school at like 12 every day and not doing anything else so I didn't really understand that you were busy but I do now that I am too so I can't (and don't want to) really imagine how shitty and stressed I prob made you feel when I got mad at you and stuff, it's really unlike me to get like that tbh so I'm sorry I didn't realize this sooner and I'm sorry if this seems weird and random af but I've been feeling pretty guilty about it so I just wanted to go for it, and btw I totally understand if you don't want to talk or anything but I was hoping that at some point we could actually try being friends if you want to bc putting everything else aside you were always a really great friend to me but I get it if you don't want to:)"
I know that the text is really informal and casual, I intended it for it to seem that way, but I feel like it's a bit too long. How can I shorten it, is there anything I need to remove? Be completely honest. I don't want to come across as desperate or anything so please let me know if I am because I'm very nervous about sending this even though I know it's the right thing to do. Thanks for any advice :)
The text: "Hey so ik this is waaaay late but I just wanted to say I'm really sorry for the way I treated you while we were together, you didn't deserve any of that and unfortunately I was in a shitty place last year and now that I'm not anymore it's pretty obvious to me how much of an ass I was to you.. Like I was getting home from school at like 12 every day and not doing anything else so I didn't really understand that you were busy but I do now that I am too so I can't (and don't want to) really imagine how shitty and stressed I prob made you feel when I got mad at you and stuff, it's really unlike me to get like that tbh so I'm sorry I didn't realize this sooner and I'm sorry if this seems weird and random af but I've been feeling pretty guilty about it so I just wanted to go for it, and btw I totally understand if you don't want to talk or anything but I was hoping that at some point we could actually try being friends if you want to bc putting everything else aside you were always a really great friend to me but I get it if you don't want to:)"
I know that the text is really informal and casual, I intended it for it to seem that way, but I feel like it's a bit too long. How can I shorten it, is there anything I need to remove? Be completely honest. I don't want to come across as desperate or anything so please let me know if I am because I'm very nervous about sending this even though I know it's the right thing to do. Thanks for any advice :)