dylantodd123
September 24th, 2015, 12:27 PM
My life and family are a complete train wreck. I've been living with my grandparents full time for the past 5 years of school due to my parents not being emotional stable or well enough to raise me. My parents divorced when I was very young after my dad got cancer and my mother cheated on him. Both my mother and father became life ruining alcoholics and prescription pill abusers users since. My mother is verbally abusive and manipulative towards me in order to get her way constantly which has lead to hour long phone call fights. She is living with her abusive boyfriend despite the fact he threw her out of a moving car only a couple months ago. I currently have cut contact with her as I can't deal with her anymore. My father has financially gone down hill to the point of him having to sell his house and move in with us. over this past year of him living with us his drinking has gotten dramatically worse to the point of him having to go to the hospital multiple times. His eating fluctuates from little to no eating causing him to become sickly ill looking and very skinny. He now uses a walker as he is unable to walk on his own anymore due to drinking and not eating. The doctors have told him and us that if he continues to drink he will die within the next 6 to 4 months from kidney and liver failure. he has taken to hiding his drinking but it's still very obvious. he is also drinking and driving to get more alcohol from the store which has caused him to get into a accident. I have tried to confront him but he only gets upset or angry and continues to hide it. My best friend since age 6 has also moved in with us as a foster child since she can no longer stay with her dad. We have grown apart since her moving in. She now calls me "annoying" and never wants me around as she can barely stand me (which makes me quite sad). She also continuously calls me stupid and criticizes everything I do. She thinks of herself as an adult even though she recently turned 17 and continuously talks about how she "doesn't need permission" from my grandparents for anything even though she's not 18 yet. All her new friends are 19 to 25 which upsets my grandparents as well. She doesn't listen to any authority and is very bratty. This leads to my grandparents fighting with her and me. I am blamed 90 percent of the time for her mistakes in the house which is very upsetting. My Grandparents have come to expect her and her best friend who 21 to drive me places which upsets her and me as it is not her responsibility. They have made her use her own money from her working to pay for my meals and supplies. My grandparents are also hordes and refuse to throw things out. It's mainly my grandma who hoards while my grandpa is the enabler. The fridge is stuffed with old and new food, most of which isn't used and expires. The rest of the house (except my room and my sisters room) are completely filled with boxes of stuff. I've had many argument about it with them in which they tell me I am always wrong. They tell me I'm a asshole, ungrateful, or worse when I question or bring up the Hoarding issue. My grandma refuses to talk about it and walks away every time I do. My grandpa suffers from PTSD and has insane mood swings. he will go from the nicest person in the word to trying to hit me and screaming at the top of his lungs. He incredibly rude and taunts me about my personal issues with school, depressions, and anxiety in front of my family or friends. He constantly tells me he wants me out of the house but I’m still only 16. They complain about having to drive and pick me up from school and other places but refuse to get me my license. My grandparents are also very cheap and it takes me month of convincing just to get new cloths that fit. I have been attending therapy for the past year and a half and have seen some slight improvement in my self behavior and way of thinking. I have suffered from depression for a long time which has affected my school situation greatly. I got so depressed I almost stopped going to school completely. This led to a truancy ticket and the school district trying to file with dcfs. this greatly upset my grandparents which only made them both yell more. I feel bad for causing it but I can't help how bad I feel. Even when I'm happy there is still always something that makes me feel sad. I don't think I've felt genuinely happy for an extended period of time for a while now. recently I developed anxiety which has ruined my life greatly. I already overthink things to a mega extent which doesn't help my anxiety at all. I feel like I’m going crazy. I have no idea what to do or how to solve this mess. sorry for the long post I just feel stuck like I can't do anything and need some help.