what am İ meant to do?

[Cricket97]

Alright so here it goes.
İ have always been someone who gets really caught up in their inside world. İ make up stories in my head usually inspired by the things İ read or the things İ experience. For example: when i like a guy İ make up a dream story that can pass on as a tv drama.
So back in June İ discovered the game the last of us. İ didn't play it, what İ liked was the story. İ read its synopsis from Wikipedia and watched behind the scenes videos. Then İ thought about spinoff in my Head. Unlike the other times İ got caught up in something and forgot about it, this time it came to me: maybe this was my passion: becoming a screenwriter l.
However , i find myself to be lazy becoming one. You need to work hard för the things you want. İ scribble something but İ don't dedicated myself to watching movies and learning things to become a screebwriter/ director. İ can dream of what will happen if İ become famous and have my dream boyfriend. I'm also writing the topics that can be used in my writings. İ don't know if İ really mean to be a writer. Maybe the planning stuff is appealing to me.
Also, the stories İ dream öf include me as Thé Head character. Maybe acting is what i want??

So... what do you think?

[dxcxdzv]

Did you ever try to write concrete things?

[Cricket97]

Yes, İ started writing something in the form of a screenplay. İ read a little bit öf john costello's book and wrote it in a screenplay format. I'm also trying to read books that are more important in the literature. But 'I'm not like sitting everyday for 5 hours and write. İ also started college and I-m studying molecular biology and genetics

[Cricket97]

Also 2 diary/blog type of writings.

[dxcxdzv]

Cricket97 :
I see, writing is not seating 5 hours like this, although if it's your profession you have to do it quite intensively
I think you've got studies for writing screenplays, I assume it's standardized.
The fact is that writing stories where you are the main character doesn't mean your deep wish is to be an actress.
You should look at the studies for screenplay writing, 'don't think it's a big deal so you might be able to continue your actual cursus as well.

[Patri6k]

Try writing