Rallo
September 21st, 2015, 07:50 PM
I don't even know where to start with this thread. I basically just want to get out how I feel because I've really not told anyone before... It's not helping me at all keeping it all to myself, so I guess I'm just typing it here to let it out.
There was this girl, her and I dated for almost 2 years. Over the last 6-12 months of the relationship we both made various mistakes - we were both young and stupid I guess. Though we could both forgive each other, the things we each did aren't easily forgotten - the scars still are there and hurt everyday if her and I are still together. With all this in mind I ended it for good due to about 3 months of constant back-and-fourth arguments about the past, spiteful comments, indications of trust issues, etc. It wasn't at all easy, though I felt it needed to be done.
That was about 4-5 months ago now. I recently heard a song on the radio which always reminded me of her, a song which usually hurt like hell to her. It used bring back all the memories, it was our song. This particular time it didn't bring back memories, it didn't hurt. It was extremely odd, I felt nothing at all, I didn't miss her in the slightest.
After a bit I started thinking about things and how I felt, I guess I may have over thought a little. I started thinking about what her and I had, how I felt about her. It was over 2 and a half years that I loved her, I've never felt that way about anyone before. It really hurt, though for once it wasn't because I missed her - it was because I missed being in love and I'm scared I may never be again. I really don't see other girls the way I see her, even the ones I kind of like. I don't see her that way anymore either though. It's just really confusing.
There was this girl, her and I dated for almost 2 years. Over the last 6-12 months of the relationship we both made various mistakes - we were both young and stupid I guess. Though we could both forgive each other, the things we each did aren't easily forgotten - the scars still are there and hurt everyday if her and I are still together. With all this in mind I ended it for good due to about 3 months of constant back-and-fourth arguments about the past, spiteful comments, indications of trust issues, etc. It wasn't at all easy, though I felt it needed to be done.
That was about 4-5 months ago now. I recently heard a song on the radio which always reminded me of her, a song which usually hurt like hell to her. It used bring back all the memories, it was our song. This particular time it didn't bring back memories, it didn't hurt. It was extremely odd, I felt nothing at all, I didn't miss her in the slightest.
After a bit I started thinking about things and how I felt, I guess I may have over thought a little. I started thinking about what her and I had, how I felt about her. It was over 2 and a half years that I loved her, I've never felt that way about anyone before. It really hurt, though for once it wasn't because I missed her - it was because I missed being in love and I'm scared I may never be again. I really don't see other girls the way I see her, even the ones I kind of like. I don't see her that way anymore either though. It's just really confusing.