What do I do now?

[bleh.]

I lost my best friend. She told me she didn't need me in her life. She told me I was a toxic shadow. She told me I was a bad influence. She told me I was sick. She told me that I constantly bash people on how they look. She told me I was rude. She told me I need help. She dragged me into all of this. She started making me think about my weight. She tells me she wants to be skinny. She bashes people who are bigger. She pulled me into this hell. Now she's leaving and I'm locked in. I don't even know what to do anymore. My sunshine left me covered in darkness.

[dxcxdzv]

Ok... So best friend problem.
You've got a problem with your weight?
May be she told you that because she's complexing about her weight and think that you've got a bad influence on her about it.

[ClaraWho]

Right, so if we sort through all the drama it comes down to her thinking you are a bad influence and are a negative person to be around, because you criticise others.

Only you know if there is any truth in that, as we don't know you. If so, you may want to explore the reasons why you are so harsh towards others, and perhaps seek counselling for those issues.

If they aren't true, then unfortunately she may be going through some things in her life, and this is the decision she has come to. You should move on.

I'm leaning towards the first one, as you describe yourself as 'locked in'. A therapist would really help with showing you how capable you are.

~ Clara

[kayla...]

I lost my best friend. She told me she didn't need me in her life. She told me I was a toxic shadow. She told me I was a bad influence. She told me I was sick. She told me that I constantly bash people on how they look. She told me I was rude. She told me I need help. She dragged me into all of this. She started making me think about my weight. She tells me she wants to be skinny. She bashes people who are bigger. She pulled me into this hell. Now she's leaving and I'm locked in. I don't even know what to do anymore. My sunshine left me covered in darkness.

Learn from what she said if it's true and find a new friend because this one was a c##t.
Build a bridge and get over it, don't let this also toxic person bring you down

[jssixna]

That's a shame. Unfortunately, some friendships are like seasons. They come and go. Now there is always a chance you will talk again. Don't let this bring you down. Give it some time and maybe think about what she said about you and how you can fix it.