so i might have been asexual...?

[Remora]

Is that a thing? A platonic crush?
The year i spent being fifteen years old was one hell of a very confusing ride as i once again fell for a young male. I suppose i just assumed i was in love since he matched the description i set for myself as "perfect boyfriend"- medium-length blonde hair, either short or tall (but nowhere in between ^w^) and slender, brown eyes and we had a lot of similar interests as to gaming/music and stuff! but in the summer holiday, i realized i'd never thought anything sexual about him at all, and something about going on a date with him came to my mind and i quickly got rid of the thought because it was a bad thought! so now i guess that i just... overreacted? i mean, the desire to just be best buddies with someone is probably also a thing, but i hadn't felt it before, and the closest thing to what i was feeling at that time was my crush for him. i know this post is a disorganized mess but i'm having a one man birthday party over here and i'm really, really confused. ;w;

what am i? from my own guess, i'd be an... asexual homoromantic cisgender male?

[eric2001]

I don't think hardly anyone is asexual. You sound a bit lonely though. The boy you're talking about seems like he's just the guy for you. Ask him out on a date. There's not one good reason not to.

[lliam]

Your text confused me too. ^^

My first impresson was that you described just a normal but close friendship among boys. Only your (kinda) homoerotic view differs somewhat from this impression.

In my opinion, that's kinda sexually or such. But that you don't want to have sex with him it's cause you rather see him as a (close) friend than find him attractive in a sexual way. But I guess that mustn't exclude, that your are attracted to him.

[Hudor]

I think you're overthinking stuff. Having a crush doesn't necessarily entail being attracted sexually to the person. I don't think you're asexual and should probably wait and let the hormones settle down a bit before you decide on labels.