Scared To Go To School Tomorrow?

[CupcakeLuv101]

Tomorrow's gonna be my first day back at school and I'm starting grade 10 and I'm absolutely freaking out I can't calm myself down at all I'm so scared to the point where I puked myself. I know it sounds stupid but I suffer from didaskalienophobia - a fear of attending school and after summer breaks you are literally freaking out of your mind and would have to puke several times on the day right before going back. I think the main reason why I'm scared is because I'm scared of losing friends because that has happened to me a lot in the past where friends have criticized me behind my back and decided to just not be my friend anymore so I have been through a lot of this. I'm also worried what kind of people will be in my classes, getting bad grades and also having to think about what to wear each day and putting that all together creates extreme anxiety I honestly feel like I'm drunk right now I can't keep myself under control I have major anxiety about tomorrow right now. Im panicking even more than being scared of first going to high school i don't know why

Someone please help me be excited for school because right now I'm really panicking

[ptz7649]

sorry nobody replied yestaerday.
how was your day? are you ok now?

in my experiance, good friends do stick together. If i were you, next summer holidays maybe you could meet with some of your friends regualy (say every week or fortnight) or at least stay in touch somehow.
i know that isnt much help now, but it might help in the future.

anyway, other things like good grades and other people in your class, you can only wait and see with the people and i guess when you read this, you will know. Good luck! for good grades, well... at my school you dont have to show or share what you get, so if thats the case in yours, then you should just try to avoid those conversations.

hope it went went well,
hazel

[dzoni]

Honestly the first day in not that bad. It's the second one that gets you ;)

Yeah school sucks I know. Only thing that kept me from depression is knowing that there are dozens of friends waiting to hang out and talk about their summer.

The more you think about it, the more you will panic. Stop doing that to your self. Think about something else, think about what will you do when you come home. Think about your friends.

[lliam]

I learned, life is all about continous changing.

You grow fom child to a teen
from a teen to a young adult
from a young adult to an aduld
and from a aduld mentally back to a child - when you get very old.

And with every stage of life your perspectives on it will change in your life.

This also means that people change.

Interests and things that you shared with friends as kids, get insignificant and behaviors may change too.

So it is normal that old friendships end and you're looking for new friends and hopefully will find some. Even BFs don't usual stay best friends all life long.

And btw: In my opinion this is a very naive and pathetic expectation.



The way you describe it you have expierenced that all, I guess. Therefore, I wonder why this panic yet?

Is this part of your personality?

If yes, then you need professional help.
If not, you have to learn to deal with it like everyone.

Probably it's just something that you will only experience once. And I hope that's the last time you've to get along with it.